First post.... sad post

[JustJosh]

Please if you're on a break or you're over it right now don't read this if you think it will make you worse. hate to cause a relapse. and if you're off it GOOD FOR YOU. I'M PROUD OF YOU AND I LOVE YOU


i just need to post about my cuts today. i have been cutting a little bit more heavy for the past week or so. i'm also doing depression unit in my health class (always a fun unit) and i don't think i have depression and i don't really want it but at other times i think i do/i do want it. so that just makes me in a horrible mood and i question myself and do more over analysis that comes with anxiety disorder. so i cut. ive actually planned out this cut for a bout a week and today i did it. i carved POSER into my upper arm. Im sorry this post isn't interesting or really have a point but i just needed it up somwhere.
I'm Josh by the way, its good to be part of this forum so thank you MODS. and thanks for listening to my bullshit

[Ambrosia]

Hey, Josh. Welcome to VT and ya know, we love to read your bullshit(which isn't bullshit. It matters! =D)!!

First off, carving words into your arms isn't a very good idea. Just because the scars will be FOREVER and (from experience) just because you think you want it there forever you're going to regret it one day. Try to keep to not doing words, kay? It's way better to have to explain lines than words. In my opinion.

Maan, I hate when they used to do Depression in my Health and RY(Reconnecting Youth) classes. It was horrifying. I hated listening to them drone on and on and on and I used to get sooo self-concious. You must love it(Ha-Ha...)! Lol

Don't be in a horrible mood. Smile. Be happy (What good does telling you that do? Nonneee). Try to start posting in here when you want to cut. It might help you to not cut. We're all pretty damned good at helping distract you! (:

Leave me a profile message if you ever wanna talk!

[Love.Hate]

Welcome to VT Josh!

Your not writing bullshit, if it matters to you it matters to us.

First off i see where your coming from, i always hated talking about depression in class.. i was just nervous that people would look at me and click on? if that makes any sense. But just keep calm and dont freak out, if you act nervous people will realise somethings up. Just be "normal" whatever that is :P

And secondly carving words is never a good idea, you cant make up any excuse for them, or in my own personal experiance they only made me feel worse if i was looking at my scars. Which would make me cut.. vicious cycle.

Hope you feel better soon, if your feeling down you can always VM me :)