Why? Even If I'm not upset.

[Immortal Love]

Okay, so I've been wondering something. Some times, I'll just be sitting here, doing whatever I may be, and not be sad or depressed at all, (to my knowledge), and suddenly, I just want to pick my Razor out of the back of my phone, and cut.

I find it so odd, and it happens more often now, but I'm keeping good control of not cutting, thank goodness. But I just wonder why. I could be bored and want to do that, which is not good. I have no good reason, (Ha, if there are any good reasons anyways), to cut. I can assure I am no Emo Wanna-Be, nor doing it to follow a crowd. I do have my reasons to do it, just right now I want to do it just cause.

If anyone knows anything, please speak now, or forever hold your words~

[love is louder]

when i started talkin to my therapist about it she was like "we'll talk about it and find out the reason. like of its out of stress, bad communication, fear or boredum" i was like why would people do it out of boredum! but sometime i can be sat watching shit on the telly quite content and i be like "get up and do it" i dont know if thats wht ment by it or not.

[Ambrosia]

I DID cut myself when I was 13. With a stake knife. Luckily, I only did it on my forearms.
I still want to do it. My parents found out and had a LONG talk before.

Waffles, that had nothing to do with the post. It was just you saying you cut yourself once. Woo?

@OP,

A lot of people will cut without even seeming to realize they have no reason. I do it too and it can be horribly stressful when you realize you're doing it. It's an addiction, and that's something most of us admit. Alcoholics don't always have to be stressed or depressed to drink.

When you get that urge, just think about why you DON'T want to cut, and remind yourself that cutting is a coping mechanism, not a game you play when you're bored (All though that's not it for all people).

[Immortal Love]

That makes sense actually, and I'll try that next time it crosses my mind. Thank you~

[Triceratops]

I sometimes get the urge to self harm even when I'm not upset, and just simply for the sake of doing it. I used to get enjoyment out of it and I did it to kill time as I used to think wounds were pretty. A couple of years ago I also went through a phase where I thought it was funny to draw sick images on my flesh with a razor too.

[foreverbroken37]

the same happens to me alot.. i talked to a friend who was also a cutter and after awhile if youv been a long term cutter it becomes an addiction because like any drug it takes your pain awAy even when you happy... and everyone is always looking to feel better when they are not happy

[Ruzlier]

Does it give you a rush or something? It could just give you an adrenalin rush that you enjoy

[Ambrosia]

Amanda is completely right. Because it does become an addiction.

It's releases enomorphins to the brain and gives you something sort of like a "runners high". When we cut, we don't feel pain the same way we would if we cut by accident (Which is how I wonder sometimes why people say they "Started cutting when they accidentally cut their hand open blah blah blah"). It becomes an addiction like if you some a cig or something.

Cutting is a physical release of overwhelming emotional stress. The pain releases endorphins that help soothe and clear the mind of built
up anger and anxiety. It's hypothesized that it could be caused by chemical imbalances and depression that make them lust for the endorphin release. It may be due to sensory arousal. They feel more real and alive while cutting themselves.
^^ I read that on a site.
---Oh yeah. I had already posted! Lol

[foreverbroken37]

yes lexi :) not a rush in that sense you just feel so much better after youv done it

[Immortal Love]

I remember reading about the endorphin release before, and that I do agree with. Although I am happy to annouce that after 2 and i dont know how many months, of cutting, I've finally made the choice to stop. I saw how much I was hurting my friends, family, and Boyfriend, and it gave me strength to throw away all 5 of my hidden blades.