Can't Resist

[AussieBiBoy]

Hi Guys,

Well there is this guy at school who is ridiculously hot and I have had a crush on him for ages but I always thought he was straight. Now I am not openly bisexual but a lot of people think I am and he thought I was, anyway today I had just been to gym at school and was getting changed and this guy was their and he stripped completely naked before hopping into one of the shower cubicles. Needless to say I got hard in my briefs and he saw it and laughed and told me to shower with him. We were the last 2 people in their so I wasnt worried about getting caught so I ran and hopped in their with him and we made out and rubbed our bodies against each other but that was it (it was so weird and totally unexpected but totally amazing!).

Now that sounds amazing, and it was, but I have been trying to 'get straight' lately and was going so well and had stopped the gay porn and even stopped thinking about guys when I wank. However, when I saw him I just couldnt resist and I am wondering what others do when they want something sexually but dont want it emotionally, how do you stop yourself?

PM Me if you want! :)

[smitty35]

If you want to be gay, then by all mean do so. I know you want to be gay/bi, but to not do it just because is silly. A gay/bi person who know that they are that, who tries purposly NOT TO BE that is trying to fit in with the people who dont want them to be gay.


I really dont know why you are trying not to be what you are.

[grstl]

I also tried to "go straight" to fit in with my religious family and friends...now have a disappointed but loyal girlfriend and kid.....then I have slipped back into desperate gayness. Any guy look, peek, touch, sex is totally amazing to me. Girl stuff is barely ok for me even though I always try to totally satisfy her. I wish I hadn't complicated everything by trying to change my identity.

Just enjoy whatever you enjoy and be who you want to be.
By the way, I think you said you are a twin.....is he like you in this area?

[JonTyler]

Why hide what you are.. I know your trying to fit in by "going straight" but that's not what and who you are.. Just be yourself dude.. people should like you for who YOU are.. not a fake you

[AussieBiBoy]

I also tried to "go straight" to fit in with my religious family and friends...now have a disappointed but loyal girlfriend and kid.....then I have slipped back into desperate gayness. Any guy look, peek, touch, sex is totally amazing to me. Girl stuff is barely ok for me even though I always try to totally satisfy her. I wish I hadn't complicated everything by trying to change my identity.

Just enjoy whatever you enjoy and be who you want to be.
By the way, I think you said you are a twin.....is he like you in this area?

Nah he is definitely straight, witnessed him having sex before (accidentally saw it hehe).
And I know I should be who I am but thats the problem, I dont know who I am! I sit in this limbo where one minute im Bi and the next Im straight and Im sick of it. I want to be straight because being straight is easier, unfortunately we dont live in a society where gays are accepted by all. Now, if I decide I am definitly bi then yeah, Ill be bi and admit to it but I dont know anymore what I am and I want to be straight so thats what Im going for. The reason is is that I want to settle down and have a family and have kids and live that life. Dont judge me because i dont want to be gay, being gay is a difficult life and I want to avoid it if I can.

Anyways, just for an update, im going to that guys house for a sleep over (hehe) this weekend so hopefully that will help me clear up who I am :)

[Falloutdude]

Nah he is definitely straight, witnessed him having sex before (accidentally saw it hehe).
And I know I should be who I am but thats the problem, I dont know who I am! I sit in this limbo where one minute im Bi and the next Im straight and Im sick of it. I want to be straight because being straight is easier, unfortunately we dont live in a society where gays are accepted by all. Now, if I decide I am definitly bi then yeah, Ill be bi and admit to it but I dont know anymore what I am and I want to be straight so thats what Im going for. The reason is is that I want to settle down and have a family and have kids and live that life. Dont judge me because i dont want to be gay, being gay is a difficult life and I want to avoid it if I can.

Anyways, just for an update, im going to that guys house for a sleep over (hehe) this weekend so hopefully that will help me clear up who I am :)

good luck, haha. oh and btw, if you do something with him when you are there, make sure it is something you really want. rather then jump to something that you will regret later.

[somethingrandom]

Well, I'd think that you should clear up whether you're interested in this guy sexually or emotionally. For example, I'd be willing to do lots of stuff with a guy just for fun, but I wouldn't go as far as an actual relationship. Similarily, you may be interested in this guy because you want to experiment, or because you find them attractive, or because you actually feel emotionally connected to him. From what you're writing, i think it's the first two in your case, but only you can truly know. It's also possible that he could also be bisexual or bi-curious.

As for the issues with being openly gay or bi, I know exactly what you mean. Where I live, even though it's a fairly accepting community, I wouldn't dare to bring up anything even about experimenting, except with a couple of very close friends. From what I've found in my friends who are gay or bi, they typically come out in university, since the community is much larger and there will always be people who accept you. It's a reality, you'll probably lose some friends and make some new ones if you come out, and you have to make that decision for yourself.

[Aussie16]

Well first off I just want to say that you are one lucky guy :) I am super jealous :P The only example is a guy I met once on a holiday who was 18 and gay and we chatted and got to know each other really well. I am bi but I was only 15 at the time. After a few days of spending days together, he asked if we could have sex. At first I consented because he was an amazing guy, attractive and as I soon found out he had a big penis. We went to his room and got naked and after he got naked and I was standing their naked I realised that I wasnt ready yet and I wanted to loose my virginity to someone I love. I probably would have loved him and fallen in love with him but we lived in different parts of Australia and it never would have worked and, at the time, it was illegal. Anyways when Im horny I think I am an idiot for rejecting him and the amazing sex we would have had but when I am thinking rationally I realise that I did the right thing. Basically you will know if its right or not, whether its what the socially acceptable sexuality is or not :) I think you are lucky dude, if its what you want, go for it :) Dont try to be 'straight', follow your heart :)

[blaine97]

Whatever works for you best is fine. But don't try and stop it all at once. Take as long as you need.

[drum major]

just be yourself be gay/bi/st8 what ever you want to be it only matters what you think of yourself

[MusicManic]

This is going to sound so cliche but just go with what your heart tells you. Fuck the haters who don't accept you for who you are.

[Apollo.]

Don't try and "go straight" tbh it will be really impossible, you can't change who you are, it is difficult I tried to do it to but now I know in myself that I'm gay and I'm much happier for it, I'm not out yet but it feels good to know myself. PM me if you want to talk

[Bkylblk]

You don't necessarily need to stop yourself, when I'm in that situation its sometimes best to give in and just have fun as long as no one gets hurt. But I'm more interested in why your trying to not be attracted to guys anymore.