LiTTleBrok3nDolly
March 29th, 2011, 08:34 PM
Im complaining about how i want to end my life;
Its really hard to express what im feeling towards those who can help me. And so far my parents and friends think im neutral...But for the past week ive just been wanting to vanish from existence. Im sick and tired of living. Im not getting anywhere i want to, progress is to slow and im getting impatient. Ive been in therapy for about a year and a half and ive only made one or two steps. I want to talk to certain people i freak out towards for stupid reasons and im already 18, i havent finished school, not in it not even home schooling, no job, dont have permit, live with parents and i feel like a selfish brat. My mom piratically forces help on me so i dont have to do chores cause if i do i freak out and have to clean everything and end up washing my hands to far.
I just want to cut my wrist, i just was hospitalized in a mental one for attempting suicide. But i couldnt handle other ppls problems, i mean it made me feel better that i didnt have a husband who filed divorce papers on me during the war and then he died. And the older women there had good advice, but i myself in my own body and with my own problems am feeling to tired to keep on surviving. I want to die.
Its really hard to express what im feeling towards those who can help me. And so far my parents and friends think im neutral...But for the past week ive just been wanting to vanish from existence. Im sick and tired of living. Im not getting anywhere i want to, progress is to slow and im getting impatient. Ive been in therapy for about a year and a half and ive only made one or two steps. I want to talk to certain people i freak out towards for stupid reasons and im already 18, i havent finished school, not in it not even home schooling, no job, dont have permit, live with parents and i feel like a selfish brat. My mom piratically forces help on me so i dont have to do chores cause if i do i freak out and have to clean everything and end up washing my hands to far.
I just want to cut my wrist, i just was hospitalized in a mental one for attempting suicide. But i couldnt handle other ppls problems, i mean it made me feel better that i didnt have a husband who filed divorce papers on me during the war and then he died. And the older women there had good advice, but i myself in my own body and with my own problems am feeling to tired to keep on surviving. I want to die.