Emotional Breakdowns From Trouble

[User Deleted]

when i get in trouble i break down and when its big trouble i sometimes become so depressed i say i want to die and when i say it i mean it. it started out as sadness, then very sad, then depression, now each breakdown is a complete shutdown emotionally. It hasant happend since last semester, thats like a record. i think im emo (no i dont cut) because those feelings are far more severe than most peoples and i cant control when i cry even if im not sad. dose this happen to anyone else? am i really emo?

[Syvelocin]

Emo is a stereotype, a label, like a jock or a prep. If you mean you think your emotional, then I'd say so. I wouldn't believe that you're emo unless you fit that stereotype (the Hot Topic clothes, the attention-seeking behaviour, etc.) It sounds like your typical case of teen angst and depression to me, maybe a bit of a mood issue if it isn't due to adolescence. You're definitely not alone here though.

[User Deleted]

Ok but why only when i get in trouble, sometimes i dont even care about the trouble and just get depressed? the depresson wasant just been as a teen, its been through my whole childhood too. Twice, people were were considering giving me counseling. :confused:

[Syvelocin]

When I was younger, getting in trouble in school was the worst thing in the world. From getting a domage for the first time (a domage is something we did at my French primary school. It was like a punishment system. You got purple slips for doing something good, and pink slips for doing something bad) to talking in class when I was a kid, once, up through my teen years when I wouldn't be paying attention and the teacher would purposefully ask me a question. I would get this humiliated feeling inside me, even just a bit of yelling from a teacher would send me into tears, but I had to hold them back. In fact, when I first started self-harming, a lot of what teachers said to me would cause me to want to do so during school. I've always been an extremely sensitive person, that's what I associate that with. My mental state and feelings were always very fragile things. I've toughened up a bit, but I still have that sensitivity. You might grow out of it like that, or it just might be who you are.

My depression part of my bipolar disorder started around nine or ten. I was in therapy even before that, for bipolar and trauma (I wasn't diagnosed bipolar at the time, but I've behaved like that my entire life). Like I said, you're not alone.

[User Deleted]

thank you for sharing, it means alot to me