FullyAlive
March 29th, 2011, 02:50 PM
Ok, so I've posted here before about how I eat etc. and I just want to know when the point is that you actually have an ED. I don't have an eating disorder, but obviously many people do and I just wondered when dieting etc was considered an eating disorder.
I tend to starve myself, binge and purge, or sometimes just purge without binging necessarily just purging after eating. The difference is I actually am fat so i'm doing it for my own good. I don't just think I am, I actually am. I look in the mirror and I feel consumed by hatred, I hate what I am. I suppose I just like the control, I like knowing that I can control what I eat and hopefully one day what I look like.
I dont think I have an eating disorder because I think I can still stopl it, if I really worked hard I think I could stop. It would be difficult but I don't know I think maybe I could do it if I really really tried. Therefore it's not an eating disorder if you see?
But anyway I've rambled enough, I just want to know where do you draw the line between dieting and an ED? How do you decide when it's got that serious?
I tend to starve myself, binge and purge, or sometimes just purge without binging necessarily just purging after eating. The difference is I actually am fat so i'm doing it for my own good. I don't just think I am, I actually am. I look in the mirror and I feel consumed by hatred, I hate what I am. I suppose I just like the control, I like knowing that I can control what I eat and hopefully one day what I look like.
I dont think I have an eating disorder because I think I can still stopl it, if I really worked hard I think I could stop. It would be difficult but I don't know I think maybe I could do it if I really really tried. Therefore it's not an eating disorder if you see?
But anyway I've rambled enough, I just want to know where do you draw the line between dieting and an ED? How do you decide when it's got that serious?