guyfromnowhere
March 29th, 2011, 03:53 AM
I love my gf and I like my best friend. My bf found out I'm not straight a few days ago. We were both hiking and we just resting and he kissses me into the tree. He touched me like all over. I offered for us to have sex but he didn't. His hands were like magic and he made me for awhile even wonder if I was really gay.He's been a crush of mine since I was 9. It was awkward but it was like my best kiss I had from a guy that really meant a lot to me for the longest time. He asks me if I'm gay and I just I'm not straight but I like Angela. He still considers himself straight but our relationship sometimes I feel like he's looking at me instead of just socializing which I still want to be seen as a friend. My gf doesn't know I'm bi just thinks I'm a pretty boy. Like I care a lot about how I look and all people at school call me gay because I have long hair feminine face because of my eyes and mouth and my voice isn't really breaking. All nonindications of being gay but idiots at .school think it has something to do with it. Anyway my gf looked pass what they said and she loves me for me. I have decided tonight we're pretty serious and I don't want to complicate that with anyone else. So I'm pretty much done with kissing or touching any other guy. Just last night we had been down to our underwear and I liked it. I actually contemplated doing oral. I guess I know I'm attracted to her it didn't feel wrong touching her if I didn't think about it. I guess I want to be straight anyway like if she could be the one that makes it where I'm never with another guy I would be content. I only like guys because that's how I feel a lot of the time. But loving her is like something so different.from the sex with other guys. Hers is so much more than just the physical connection. It's like so true I never thought I'd feel these type of feelings for a girl. Idk. But overall now I have all these feelings for both of them. I guess I know my best friend would only use me as a sex object not a bf. And I've always really wanted more I rather have friendship than have him ever touch me even though I physical long for him and think of him like all the time and for once if I replaced his gf I'd be so excited. I just want real emotional care I'm tired being a one night stand. I want to do more with her but I wonder can I go just with her without resenting her? What would be best for my relationships any advice?