I'm so close to the blade

[canyon]

please close

[SirRawrsalot]

You don't want to get into the habit of cutting. It may seem like a stress relief now but it follows and haunts people for months or years.

What you should do is to really analyze the source of the problem, get yourself into therapy or go to your school counselor and they will help you solve the problem, which is ultimately the goal. Cutting won't *solve* anything, it just distracts you.

Do something non-destructive to distract yourself. Music, tv, games, jigsawpuzzle, sleep, anything at all. Vent it all out online or to a therapist at some point, but don't take it out on yourself, it will only worsen the problem.

[canyon]

You don't want to get into the habit of cutting. It may seem like a stress relief now but it follows and haunts people for months or years.

What you should do is to really analyze the source of the problem, get yourself into therapy or go to your school counselor and they will help you solve the problem, which is ultimately the goal. Cutting won't *solve* anything, it just distracts you.

Do something non-destructive to distract yourself. Music, tv, games, jigsawpuzzle, sleep, anything at all. Vent it all out online or to a therapist at some point, but don't take it out on yourself, it will only worsen the problem.

I know it won't solve the problem, but I'm just so lost I'm past the point of caring. I just want to stay in bed and sleep so badly, but I have so much schoolwork to do and I just got back and I have to go tomorrow, but I'm about to have another breakdown right now. I have so much work right now and I know I won't sleep tonight, so I'm about to not do any of it and just cry and go to sleep. But I just feel so lost and confused right now..

[Fiction]

The first thing I would say, is don't keep anything in your room or near you that you could use to cut with. This way you won't cut on impulse, you'll have more chance to think about it.

Any type of distraction will work. Reading, writing, drawing. Anything that keeps your mind pre occupied. Even just replying to posts on here or whatever. Thing is with distractions is they work in the short term, but you still need some kind of release for your emotions. Try and find something that makes you feel better after you do it. Something that releases all your emotions. I've found writing sometimes helps me but it could be other things. Maybe having a rant to someone, or talking to someone about what's going through your head.

Hope this helps :)

I can see from your post you know about the dangers of cutting, and how much of an addiction it is, so I won't go on about that.

[Spook]

Once you get into cutting, it's harder than ever to get back out. I am not a victim of SH myself, but I know quite a bit from reading posts here on VT. It's not worth it to cause yourself pain. Not only will you end up in the hospital to get stitches and have to pay extra money, you will also feel worse. You won't feel better, like you said in your thread. The more you cut, the more scars, and it makes you feel ugly and depressed. That makes you cut more, and your feelings only worsen. Don't do this. All of us on VT care about you. PM me anytime you need help or encouragement. ~Caitlin

[canyon]

Once you get into cutting, it's harder than ever to get back out. I am not a victim of SH myself, but I know quite a bit from reading posts here on VT. It's not worth it to cause yourself pain. Not only will you end up in the hospital to get stitches and have to pay extra money, you will also feel worse. You won't feel better, like you said in your thread. The more you cut, the more scars, and it makes you feel ugly and depressed. That makes you cut more, and your feelings only worsen. Don't do this. All of us on VT care about you. PM me anytime you need help or encouragement. ~Caitlin

I know I won't feel better in the long run, but that night I just hurt so much, I was ready to do anything to make the pain that I was feeling less than the pain that I could give myself.

I still hurt a lot right now, and I'm still really sad and angry, but I don't want to hurt myself anymore really. I just want all of the pain and sadness to stop..

[Revolution]

I'll be straight, it's a bad idea to start cutting; you don't need to ask to know that, so i'll play devils advocate for a minute. I know you're considering cutting so please think carefully about the following;

- Do you REALLY think self harm will help, or just add to the list of problems?
- Have you tried alternative methods of short physical pain? Eg, rubber bands
- Are you able to share your feelings with anyone? It can help ease your 'load'.

After this, if you're still wanting to cut.. The fact of the matter is there is a high probability that you will end up doing so. So if you reach this point, all i can advise is that you do it cleanly, carefully and not out of rage, you don't want to in a hospital under psych evaluation because you lashed out in a moment of anger.

I find myself slashing up my arm and it feels no different from my routine than making dinner. It's not nice when i sit back and look at myself, i won't lie to you either. It does help on a day to day basis, but it's also one of the big problems i have overcome eventually and the more i do it for a daily release, the worse it'll become in the end. I don't drink alcohol anymore because i'm afraid what i'll do to myself if i'm alone, depressed & intoxicated..

Hope this helps.. Goodluck