This whole thing is not good at all

[guitarro]

Well, i got myself into a really shitty situation because of drugs. First of all, i had a addiction to bud to cope with my anxieties, long story short my life is a bumpy road full of traumas. First, I witnessed my father commit suicide when i was 4, my mom has been addicted to crack-cocaine for 25 years until recently, she is 5 months clean. when i was about 10, my house got raided since my house was a crackhouse, and trust me walking into your house with your friends and seeing ur uncle chopping crack on the kitchen table isnt very pleasent. remarkably i didnt get taken away to another family.

In turn of that I had a nervous brakedown and i started going to a therepeutic day school. Last year, 2 of my uncles which pretty much took the place of my father overdosed, devastated the family and myself, and i myself being bipolar, had another nervous breakdown. My way of coping with that anxiety was bud, and since i was pretty much manic all the time, i smoked bud all the time to cope.

Then once day, i was riding with my dealer, smoking on the highway, and little did i know it was time for him to cop. I dont exactly remember were we were going, i just remember going down lakeshore(chicago),and he was buying a pound of bud. we go into this guys arpartment, and hes sitting at a kitchen table and he weighed it out, my guy gave him the money(approximatly $3500). The next thing i know the guy pulled out a stun gun and zapped my guy.

Me being paranoid as i was i always carried brass knuckles on me. The guy went and turned at me with the stun gun and i got him square in the temple, making a crunch that made me want to vomit. I went to get my guy up, then he went on to loot the the guy. he found $650 and a .45. he was nice enough to shoot the guy i knocked out 4 times in the chest. So the next month or so, i went into a paranoid frezy, always carrying a rock or a knife or something incase one of the guys freinds we killed were after me. Next thing i know, i got into a fight with a kid at my school, and he said i threatened to kill him, which i honesly didnt, go figure im at a therepeutic school, they searched me and found two knives. I went to court, they tested me for drugs, i tested positive for marijuana and the sent me to rehab.

They thought the fight was my agressions from drug abuse. Being as slick as a i am, I got $250 worth of bud fronted to me right before i went to rehab, cuz i knew the guy i was buying from was about to go to jail. now here is the really shitty part. He just got out of jail and is really pissed. This guy is high ranked in a gang long story short, and last night he called me and told me the price is 500 now, or my head.

Currently im on vacation in florida, which is very far from chicago. So now i just had to explain this to my mom who is a widow, my grandparents who just barried two of there kids, and now everyone is narotic, and im getting a early ticket home to take care of this. If i never smoked, a majority of this shit wouldnt have happened. This world of drugs only leads to destruction, trust me on that one.

[Cap'nCrunch]

Quite a story.

I don't think you can blame all your problems on Marijuana. I'd say your involvement with some bad people got you into this mess.

Good luck anyway, man.

[guitarro]

well heres an update, i payed the guy last night, and he was very aggrevated. after i gave him the money, he threw me on the cement and pushed a gun to the back of my head, and told me i fucked with the wrong guy and he wants more money for compensation. today, i figured to get this guy off my ass, i gave him 800 for an apologie. he came with a brown paper bag and told me to put the money in it. in the bottom of the bag was a picture of my brother walking somewere. basically, he told me i fucked with the wrong person, and he told me and my family wont be seeing the new year. I couldnt get the cops involved because if he gets taken out one of his friends would take his place, causing more aggrevation. Tonight i called my friend who is a high rank vice lord, and i had a car in the front of my house and in the back standing guard. one of his guys went to go in my window and my guy got him in the back of the head with a .22, saving my life. Little do these guys know my friend is very high rank, and he talked to the guys setting him straight. just 20 minutes ago i got a apologie from the asshole i owed money too. thankfully, i get to live this year, and im out of the game for good. nobody is after me, and i get to live again. If the drugs dont kill you, the people will. By the way, the drug i was dealing with was pot, yes just pot.

[greenwise]

Umm...
so in other words youve been doing lots of illegal stuff and youve taken part in a murder, and had people murder someone for you? and then your saying that drugs are all that hurt you?
k :D

[Bobby]

Umm...
so in other words youve been doing lots of illegal stuff and youve taken part in a murder, and had people murder someone for you? and then your saying that drugs are all that hurt you?
k :D

Don't post unless your helping the situation.

I'd call the police dude, they might arrest you for drugs, but the other stuff is much worse.

[guitarro]

ive been clean ever since of rehab, this is just my history biting me in the ass. Like i said in me previous post, this is taken care of, the guy who had the hit on me is dead now and now they are scared to fuck with me, i got them on check. but getting the police involved would be a very bad idea, all they would do is have a squad car watch the house, but it dosnt stop them from getting me when im getting of the bus for school. there isnt a problem anymore like i said.

[Bobby]

Ok...would you like me to lock this?

[Skhorpion]

I honestly think this thread doesn't even belong here. For one, its impossible to be truly addicted to weed. You could stop easily, you just didn't want to. Good will power ya got.

Anyway, so I don't bitch about this anymore, can you move it to depression or abuse or something?

[guitarro]

rent, i would like to know were your getting your information from, i just got out of rehab and had 84 hours of drug education. 3 hours a day, for 28 days. and to clear this up, this isnt a self pity story asking for emotional help. im just trying to get the point accross that bad things happen when you get in the game of drugs.

[serial-thrilla]

Don't post unless your helping the situation.

I'd call the police dude, they might arrest you for drugs, but the other stuff is much worse. no after killing someone the police would be a bad place to go. also they'd go after his family.

[Physicist]

What ever made you decide to go for a ride with a dealer anyways? I've hung out and had a smoke with mine before but never gotten in a car and driven off. Something tells me you knew exactly where you were going and you were "backing up" your dealer, since he's your bud. So I don't think you should blame drugs for having a hit put out on you, everything except your alleged addiction is to blame exclusively on your choices, and in a way even your addiction is your own choices.

[guitarro]

well technically, i changed the story a bit lol. We were pretty much each other's dealer, and i rode with him all the time. And mental addiction is never a choice. I got to a point were i hated it, but found myself buying it before i knew it. I don't even enjoy the high of bud anymore, but for some reason i still crave it. Hence mental addiction.

[redcar]

Why was this locked?

[UNLOCKING]

[thesphinx]

This proves that when you buy drugs your not just hurting yourself. the drugs you buy have to go through alot of people in the process people get killed and hurt.

[serial-thrilla]

umm no sorry thats bullshit. only a very very small amount of the people involved with drugs ever have to face any serious violence.

[Mannequin]

This proves that when you buy drugs your not just hurting yourself. the drugs you buy have to go through alot of people in the process people get killed and hurt.


Haha, you've been brainwashed by the american public my friend.
Drugs are made in labs, sold to dealers (who probably are not hooked on the drugs they are selling and are probably good at hiding their works and do not go out on the streets themselves). Drug dealing is a risky business and the most successful dealers have lower workers that get payed little, but get the job done. They would be the ones getting hurt.

[thesphinx]

Still it proves that you are supporting violence.

[serial-thrilla]

me buying weed once or twice a week shows im supporting violence? umm i think not.

[guitarro]

how else would the violence buisness be funded? thats like donating a little bit to a charity, your just helping a little.

[thesphinx]

how else would the violence buisness be funded? thats like donating a little bit to a charity, your just helping a little.

I agree with you.

[serial-thrilla]

its not a violent business unless the people running it are idiots.

[guitarro]

so u think ur dealers dealers dealer is a nice guy? people selling large weight are most likely gang related. Gangs' biggest income are drugs.

[serial-thrilla]

i really dont care if hes a nice guy or not. ive never seen or spoken to him. also selling large amounts in no way means your connected to any gang.

[Ethannnnnn]

yeah serial-thrilla is right

[Fiending_the_freedom]

so u think ur dealers dealers dealer is a nice guy? people selling large weight are most likely gang related. Gangs' biggest income are drugs.

hey hey hey thats veryyyy steryotypical, only the drug dealers at my school you would mistake to be in gangs, and thats only becuase they dress ganster, outside of school NONE of my drug dealers are in gangs, there very cool and nice people acually.

[thesphinx]

You guys are missing the point though.
even if your drug dealers a nice guy where do you think he gets the drugs?
from another drug dealer,
maybe you dont see the violence that the drugs are causing but its there.

[Fiending_the_freedom]

drugs arnt nessacaraly causing the violence, if drugs were legal, the volince over them would go away, but then drug dealers would just find something eeles to sell and violence will be there.

[thesphinx]

Yes but right now it is causing violence.

[Octo22]

Yes but right now it is causing violence.

So is everything else in the world.

And like some people said, some dealers are nice people, screw this "well he got it from another dealer!" crap. I know a guy who buys products, makes his own ecstacy and then sells it with some help with runners. Nicest kid alive, and rich now too. NO VIOLENCE INVOLVED THERE.

Drugs don't cause violence, greed and people cause it.
If drugs weren't around, these people would still be causing violence.

Plus your story seems way far-fetched. It is possible to have happened, just we all know how trust-worthy people over the internet are.

[guitarro]

Like you said, you don't have to believe anything you read on internet, thats your choice. I am not referring to people carrying less than 2000 dollars worth of drugs. Nice people don't sell people something that is proven to kill them. Like I said before, Gang's biggest profit is drugs, if you don't believe me, check out the national drug intelligence center-
http://www.usdoj.gov/ndic/pubs21/21137/mlaund.htm

[chelsea714]

guitarro, it's pretty ridiculous that you got your self into that mess with your own decisions and then blame it on weed I mean come on

[guitarro]

If I never got into the drug buisness, none of this would have happened. I couldn't have been a drug dealer without it, and my perception on what is right and wrong wouldn't have been changed without it. Why is it wrong to blame it on weed? please, minus weed from all of this and tell me how it only had to do with my decisions, and not with a mind-altering substance.

[Fiending_the_freedom]

marijuana isnt physicaly addicting, but yes hard to quit, so yea your decisions are to blame, & yes well duh you wouldnt have been a drug dealer w/o drugs, btu i know LOTS of dealers who themselves dont do ANY drugs, and it works out GREAT for them

[serial-thrilla]

dont get high on your own supply. the number one rule of dealing drugs. you broke that rule and payed for it.

[guitarro]

I only would smoke profits, i was dealing large weight.

[serial-thrilla]

that doesent matter at all, the rule was made so you dont get hooked on the drug your dealing regardless of the amount you sell.