She's.. Dying?

[Quick_Sylver]

I don't like my mother. Hell, sometimes I genuinely and completely hate her. And yet... I know her fibro is getting worse. I know the fact that she's going through two packs of MAXI pads a period, when it lasts for three fucking weeks is bad. She's been on iron pills for 3 months now. She's had surgery for this twice. She has an appointment with a specialist about getting a hystemrectory on Friday. And yet, even these health problems aren't what's telling me that she's dying.. Its the fact that I can see it in her face, her eyes, her simple existence that she's in fact, dying.

And I feel nothing towards her accept pity that she got herself this way. She's always nagging me about my weight, sharing "tips" with me on how to lose weight because she's been fighting hers since she was my age. I feel pity for her, and that's about it.

When it comes to her dying.. Just no. It can't happen. And this is the fact that my godmother[Aka, real mother I shoulda had], maybe fighting breast cancer for the second time, and that if both die, me and my sister will be in my father's complete and total custody.

That can NOT happen. It just can't. My father.. He isn't the best person. Yeah. Let's put it this way. I can't have my mother die before I'm 16, because that's when I'm getting out. I can't have my little sister in his clutches until she's 16 either, and at 16, she'll be 11. That'll give her 5 years in his clutches. That can't, and won't happen. I will genuinely run with her if that's what it takes to keep him out of her clutches. That's how bad it is. >.<

This is just a rant/vent. Not much of a real question.

[SnowWhitesMaid]

Wow. Bless your soul and your sisters... I genuinely hope that everything works out for you two and your families...

[Spook]

I'm so sorry you are going through this. I wish you the best and you feel free to PM me anytime you wanna talk.

[Magus]

That must be though. All I wish is that everything gets better.

So don't lose hope, and keep on fighting, alright.

[Roses_Are_Yellow]

Wow, I'm so sorry you have to go through this :(

I hope everything get's better.

[Syvelocin]

This hit me a bit, because though the circumstances are much different, I can somewhat feel a connection to this.

I'm very sorry about your mother. That can't be easy, at all. I know this part of my post will sound like all the rest of the posts, but I'm just making sure you know that my thoughts are with you in that. I don't know if I could take being in your situation, quite honestly. I know you're strong though.

As far as the second part of your post goes, honestly, I'm going to tell you something that some people might not recommend, but in my head, it's what I wish I'd have done, and you would too if you made the decision to just bear it and say nothing like I did. Don't put up with that. If/when that does happen, get the fuck out of there. Go anywhere other than with your father. Don't even take a day of it. If you feel that you and your sister are at risk, honour that feeling and go straight to a shelter where they will understand what you're going through, and where you can be taken care of properly. If you have to go it alone, go straight to the shelter, then to the police for your sister. But if you manage to take her as well, then you should be set at a shelter. I'd say from there, contact a Child Protection Agency, to get you guys into a good home, or if it's just your sister who can't be alone, then make sure she's set and cared for that way.

Good luck, I wish you the best.

[Quick_Sylver]

Wow. Bless your soul and your sisters... I genuinely hope that everything works out for you two and your families...

Thank you.

I'm so sorry you are going through this. I wish you the best and you feel free to PM me anytime you wanna talk.

Thank you for the offer, however I think I'll have to decline. Nothing against you, but I'm iffy on burdening people.

That must be though. All I wish is that everything gets better.

So don't lose hope, and keep on fighting, alright.

Yeah, thanks Faris <3 I'll keep fighting til the day I die, you know that.

Wow, I'm so sorry you have to go through this :(

I hope everything get's better.

Me too..

This hit me a bit, because though the circumstances are much different, I can somewhat feel a connection to this.

I'm very sorry about your mother. That can't be easy, at all. I know this part of my post will sound like all the rest of the posts, but I'm just making sure you know that my thoughts are with you in that. I don't know if I could take being in your situation, quite honestly. I know you're strong though.

As far as the second part of your post goes, honestly, I'm going to tell you something that some people might not recommend, but in my head, it's what I wish I'd have done, and you would too if you made the decision to just bear it and say nothing like I did. Don't put up with that. If/when that does happen, get the fuck out of there. Go anywhere other than with your father. Don't even take a day of it. If you feel that you and your sister are at risk, honour that feeling and go straight to a shelter where they will understand what you're going through, and where you can be taken care of properly. If you have to go it alone, go straight to the shelter, then to the police for your sister. But if you manage to take her as well, then you should be set at a shelter. I'd say from there, contact a Child Protection Agency, to get you guys into a good home, or if it's just your sister who can't be alone, then make sure she's set and cared for that way.

Good luck, I wish you the best.

I've called the cops twice, first time they actually did something and put my sister and I into foster care. That fucked my [then] 3yo sister up big time, but we were safe for 6 months. Second time, they didn't even show up. Talked to guidance counsellors, psychatrists, none of them did fuckall. Even the nurses who treated me for random bruises and wonder why an 8yo had so many bruises. =/ Its my sister who can't be left in his care. And I'm not abandoning her to him. I'll do what I gotta do to keep her safe.

Thanks Rith, and I hope you're doing good. :hug:

[Love.Hate]

I agree with Rith on this one. If worse case senario does happen, get out of there. Do not put yourself in danger. The police will have to listen.

As for your mum, I'm truly sorry to hear what you are going through. I just can't imagine, but I know your strong. Stay happy, upbeat and positive. I really do send all my love and I hope she gets better :heart:

[Quick_Sylver]

I agree with Rith on this one. If worse case senario does happen, get out of there. Do not put yourself in danger. The police will have to listen.

As for your mum, I'm truly sorry to hear what you are going through. I just can't imagine, but I know your strong. Stay happy, upbeat and positive. I really do send all my love and I hope she gets better :heart:

Existing is my danger here. :)
They don't "have" to listen, anymore than they did listen the last times they've been called.

Thankyou for your kind words, however.