advice?

[tincan]

Hello people.

I really don't know. I'm 15 and I don't do much in life. School is a mess up and I haven't been for years. I have no friends I see on a daily basis, I only go out of the house 2/3 times a week and I just really don't know now. I feel like shit atm and just don't want to be around anymore with people like this. My family make it clear that I'm a failure and I have messed up.

Yet when I do go out each week there is this one guy who is like amazing. It's like whenever I see him each week it gets rid of all those feelings and stuff just go away while I'm with him. He's one of the only mates I've got and it's just like amazing. Problem is I only see him an hour a week and the rest of the week I'm left feeling like shit because I'm not seeing him.

I'm don't think I'm gay or anything though I just think it's because I have a lack of mates.

The rest of my life away from that 1 hour is pain/tears/headaches/feeling like crap. I don't know if going each week is helping me or if it's making me feel worse during the week.

My mum + dad don't really care about me anymore, well they care but theres a limit. I just don't know what to do now.

I'm not the best at making friends when I have hardly had any for 3+ years. I've messed up my life bad and I don't know what to do???. It's like there are things I can do to go out during the week but I feel nervous around people and don't instantly "fit in".

Back to this guy though. I can say pretty much anything to him I think. He's like there, he knows what my life is like but makes it 100% better. I just wish I could be around people like that more. I'm 15 he's just gone 17. I've known him for 4+ years but only the last 2 we've became good mates. I'm stuck as to what to do. I don't like going out of the house as I often see people from the school which I should be at and it's awkward but I know when I got to see this guy every week it's like 15 mins away and different like place.

Sorry for the long rant but I had to let it out. I hide it from people, my mum & dad would care if they could see me doing this but I just don't have guts. This guy know what shit I'm in but I don't think realizes I'm this bored/stressed/nothing to do/feel crap. I've got nothing to do during the day and the week and just anything you can think of might help.

thnx a lot people! I know there are good people out there.

[SirRawrsalot]

When you meet someone that you want to be friends with, you will be good at making friends. You met your current friend somehow, and eventually you'll meet more people who you'll be friends with. I will say though, you only get a few really close personal friends and it sounds like you've got one of your few. Make sure to cherish your hour, never take it for granted. It's rare to instantly fit in, but it can happen. Most of the time you will get out of a friendship what you put into it.

Also, try to get out of the house more! It will help you with your social endeavors.

[MassiveAttack]

i agree with the post above, get out more and try to talk to people! maybe play a sport or something and you could become friends with the people on your team. who knows! life is full of oportunities, and live life to its fullest, even if for now it may not seem like much, it will get betterm believe me when i say that.:cool:

[tincan]

Thanks people. I'll try and get out more but I find it awkward.

I mean i've just been out today and saw my mate but as soon as I leave and arrive back home I feel awful. Stomach pains, sickness, awful headache. It's awful having to think that i've got a week of nothing ahead of me but as the week goes on, thursday/friday they start to go as I feel OK as it's the weekend soon.

I just don't know what to do? I feel like I'm a waste, do nothing all week then 1 hour of decent time a week. I'd try and get out but I feel the same as above when meeting people my age.

I try not to think of it, but I can't help it. I sometimes go on facebook but it depress's me. finding older mates which have xxx to xxxx amounts of friends and a good social life.

I've messed up real bad. I'm going to try and do something to distract myself during the day or just sleep a lot.

I sleep a lot at the moment because I have nothing to get up for. And if I do get up I think about this...

I don't want to tell anyone about this, I hide it on the inside and put a happy face on and I try to be strong whenever I see anyone but as I write this I'm crying.

Sorry for the long rant but it helps to get it out as I hide it from everyone else.

Thanks for the advice again, it really helps.

[jason_smitty]

the fact that you have one friend means you can make more, try getting involved in something you enjoy doing or something new you have an interest in, it helps get you out of thinking about things toooo much and its a great way to meet more potential friends

[Compy386]

I know what you are dealing with. I felt the same way. You have to try to redeem yourself in the eyes of your parents because your parents are the ultimate form of support you need to be successful in life. You need to find out why they act this way towards you and try to remedy it in any way possible. As for your friend, he sounds like just what a friend should be. He listens, makes you feel good about yourself etc. You need to find a way to see him more ofter as this seems like it is in a way, therapeutic for you. You need him to give you the confidence you need to talk to your parents and set everything straight. I really hope this helps.