Suicide? Im feelin it

[Raiders]

Im having a huge crisis. I've been suicidal a few times already, i've even tried twice. All the feelings are coming back, instead of cutting, instead of taking as many pills as i can with alcohol I have something else planned. I want to get as fucked up as possible off coke and oxycotton. I dont care anymore, i just wanna go. I called my source, and i can fuckin do this. im just somewhat scared...I just wanna go! I dont belong...i feel like im an accident. I dont deserve to live. I have nothing to look forward to, everyone that cares about me needs to let me go. I dont want to keep on moving on forward! I hate living with all this pain inside. maybe i'll just fucking end it tonight after im completely gone. I dont care, no one does. I dont even know what love is...all i know is I want to go. I dont know where i'll end up, but i hope its somewhere better...I hate everything about me and life.

[Ambrosia]

Well first of all, you don't NEED to end up somewhere better. You need to plant your little bottom down and realize you gotta make HERE better for YOURSELF. Suicide is only a choice used when people don't want to try anymore. But dude, think about it, whats the point in life if were not trying?

All of us here, we want to help you. And we do care. And we want to keep you alive and trying. We've been there, and we are all alive. Look forward to waking up, and breathing, and knowing that you control all of this. Find something, and punch it. And tell it YOUR BOSS.

You are boss. And you need to live to prove that (:

[Raiders]

I cant chill out! I just wanna go!!

[Dack]

NO. You aren't doing this. What you ARE going to do is sit here and listen. Nothing in life is possibly ever worth the loss of a life. I don't know you, Raiders, but i really wish i could. I bet there's alot of people out there who would. You just need see out of the fog and move on...

[MacMilker]

I cant chill out! I just wanna go!!

Try not to be so obtuse
Things always get better,
And the more you don't believe me, the better they will get for you. Trust me.
I was on the verge of hanging myself out my window, I had everything ready I had a huge rope, I had already written a note to my parents I gave away the belongings that were most important to me to the most important people, and I was just saying goodbye to a friend and they wouldnt let me leave. They told me to wait one more day, and to spend that day thinking about everything I wanted in life, and I wasn't aloud to pick giving it all up as something I wanted.
I spent that day thinking about the things I wanted. And then she told me that things will start getting better if I tried to keep a positive attitude.
And they did
Little by little I am getting all the things I'm striving for in life, and if I had killed myself that night I would of caused so much pain around me, to people I didnt even realize that I would hurt until I recovered from my depression.
The point being don't end it all.
Live for today, and look forward to tomorrow.
Always keep a positive attitude and everything around you will improve.
I promise you.