missing her more than ever

[justmehere]

back in 2008 someone(i'd rather not say her name just yet)very close to me and my family was kidnapped and murdered. the person who did it is still out there. i think that kills me the most y'know? because while he/she is getting ready for Christmas,we're celebrating her birthday...without her. somebody took her away from us and then dumped her in a field like she was worthless...like trash...why? i don't understand. she was missing for 6 months. we didn't find out until around this time last year. we lost touch with her and her little girl right before she went missing.
this is killing me inside...
(i wasn't trying to right a book. i have emotions from months ago built up. feels nice to get them out somewhere)

[Fiction]

This sounds like something horrible to go through :( I can't say i've been through anything similar really.

I guess all you can do is wait. Time will heal more than anything. You said in your post it feels good to get it all out somewhere. If that's the case continue to do so. There are so many ways that you can do that. Writing as you said, drawing, playing an instrument. Anything. One thing that I find helps is just get a notebook where you can write all our feelings whenever you want. You don't have to write in everyday, and you don't have to write everything. Just when you can't get your head around your emotions and how you are feeling write all your emotions in there. More like a diary than a book.

Hope this helped somehow :)

[justmehere]

i write letters to her everyday,that makes me feel closer to her in a sense. i know she's watching over us and my little god sister(she was 3 when her mom went missing)i feel better than i did last night. and you did help. thank you :)

[FullyAlive]

I'm glad you're feeling better.

I just wanted to say I write letters to my uncle whom I lost 5 months ago. It's been really helping me I feel this way I can keep him involved with my life. Keep him with me. So keep doing that. I hope it all gets better for you in whatever way it can xxx

[justmehere]

yea. it's way more helpful. plus it puts all my thoughts on paper. kinda like a journal. :)

[music is my soul]

i feel really bad for you man. i wish i could help in someway but i havent had anyone die in my life. theres people that i know i wont ever see agian but noone who has died. anyway i just want you to know i am always here to help whenever you need it. i will try to help as much as i can.

[justmehere]

thank you! :)

[davisbr2]

they'll find the kinapper just wait

[justmehere]

i hope they do soon!
but you're right,it'll happen one day :D sooner or later.

[Leroy]

Hope they will be caught soon and will be punished and i can understand your grief and its too pain for you. Don't lose hope and be brave and try to forget the event that took place in past.

[jason_smitty]

thats horrible, really sorry for your loss

[moon_lit_angel]

Manny im so so so sorry for your loss :(
It must have been horrible
You know you can pm me anytime

:hug::hug

[Compy386]

I am so sorry for your loss. I know that many of you are probably not religious, but I look at it like this. God needs to balance out life. Things need to be equal. I do not know why they were killed in such a horrible fashion, but that is out of our control. Killers are being caught every day, who knows, perhaps justice has been dealt. Once again, I am so grievously sympathetic in my feelings towards you, but, in my opinion, she is in a much better place now. You need to be contented with the fact that now, she feels no pain. Once more, I am so sorry for your loss.

[justmehere]

I am so sorry for your loss. I know that many of you are probably not religious, but I look at it like this. God needs to balance out life. Things need to be equal. I do not know why they were killed in such a horrible fashion, but that is out of our control. Killers are being caught every day, who knows, perhaps justice has been dealt. Once again, I am so grievously sympathetic in my feelings towards you, but, in my opinion, she is in a much better place now. You need to be contented with the fact that now, she feels no pain. Once more, I am so sorry for your loss.

thank you very much. i'm not much for religious but i do believe she's in a better place. and i feel as if i'm being selfish in begging for her back.
everyone seemed to look down on her because she was a little rough on the edges. she was really a beautiful person. inside and out. if only they had taken the time to get to know her. i feel bad for the people who didn't get a chance to meet her. they missed out on someone really great. i'm greatful i was given the chance to love her :)

[Mical Lumb]

Your loss is too much and it is not easy to forget. Be strong and try to forget the past and live happily.

[restricted NA]

aww sorry this is horrible , how could someone do that :( This is really sad , your so strong to have gone through this , im sure she is in a better place now. That really kind that you celebrate her birthday every year, in honor of her. That person will get theirs in the end . May she rest in peace and her killer gets a sense of justice someday.