getting worse

[smithy94]

been a while since i posted last, but i just wanted to vent more than anything, at first it was just a dart from my dartboard, then my brothers swiss army knife. but now i took 2 pencil sharpeners from my english class, and took the blades out, and cut 5/6 shallow cuts, even though i promised my girlfriend that i wouldnt. i just dont want to talk to anyone because i feel selfish my friends and gf are going through stuff of their own and dont want to tell them again (they think ive stopped) :( just everything got on top of me my family taking the mick out of me every chance they get, exam worries, and just feeling crap made me do it, again
this was just a vent but advice would be appreciated

[love is louder]

might be an idea to start a blog. i always feel alittle better having a good rant on my blog.
also what is it you want help with
so you want to tell some one, do you want to stop, do you want advice on being safe?

[smithy94]

well yeah advice on trying to stop, i hate seeing the look on my gfs eyse when she sees new cuts, i wanna stop for her, so tips on how to do that would be great :)

[love is louder]

Well i cant give you total advice on that as i still do it
but you need to figure out why you do it in the first place
fix that and it should go away on its own
is it a coping technique, is it because of your family or people at school or work
do you do it on impulse or just when noone else is around
does your girlfriend influence it? just a few things to think about
mine is certainly the first one.

[Spook]

Well...this is an extremely hard one. I mean, I have commented on so many posts about cutting & self harm, but I never really do much. When things are virtual, it is pretty much impossible to do much. It's basically about encouragement, but the person has to improve on their own. i suggest you use your girlfriend as an anchor. Think about her as you are about to cut. Think, How would she feel? Don't you need to keep your promise? Your girlfriend cares about you and she doesn't want to see you hurt. Try to hide all things that will make you want to self harm, especially that swiss army knife. I don't think your brother would be happy if he knew that he owned something that you used to hurt yourself. There are so many people that love and care for you, so try your hardest to resist, for them. ~Caitlin

[smithy94]

well kayleigh, id say it definately a coping mechanism and a good distraction tbh it usually on impulse, i dont plan it really, just do it without thinking about it. and caitlin my girlfriend used to/still does self harm and she jsut got some bad news about her cousin so i dont like telling her my problems i jsut feel selfish at the moment and my brother left home about 3 years ago but never took his knife no1 at home knows i have it dont imagine many people would care that i do it :/ :(

[love is louder]

my suggestion is to go and see some kind of counciller. i have been self harming for about 5 years and just plucked up the courage to go and it was the best choice i have ever made. Shes helping me get to the root of the problem and trying to put other things in place from there. as for your girlfriend its kind of good that she has done it in a way because she can relate and she should be able to be there for you. as for everyone else in your life if they love you they should be there for you regardless if not you need to focus on you and how you feel. put yourself first for once. plan?