RE: do you regret it? ... are you proud

[love is louder]

I recently commented on this post from Georgia and it made me think. as i do not regret it (like i said on the other thread)
i have been told that i have to stop being ashamed of it before i can over come it.
although i dont regret what i do i am awfully ashamed of it.

wht im trying to say is are you proud of it or do you show it and does that make you feel better or help you to stop?

[FullyAlive]

God no!
I think that might be the one thing I hate the most, the guilt feeling, the shame, the embarrassment. When I was confronted about it and asked to remove my blazer, I just felt so pathetic and so stupid. Whilst one day once I've managed to stop I hope to be comfortable with showing my scars, I'll never be proud of what I've done.

[love is louder]

Glad were in the same boat!
and im sorry you had to through that
the only person that knows about me is my best friend. she tried to get me to show her but i flatly refused. sometimes i get uncomfortable around her expecially when something related comes on the telly it just makes me feel like shit
i think if i stop years later i would be able to do it
but not now. no way

[FullyAlive]

That's fine, you don't have to show any you don't want too! I hate it when stiff comes on tv too, especially when my mum is with me, I just dont make eye contact and brush over it :P

Sorry thread is going off track :/

[UnknownError]

No. Nobody is proud, unless they're a "poser" or whatever.
I wouldn't say I'm ashamed, because I've realised that's just who I am,
but I'm not proud either.

[love is louder]

All i wanted to know is if there were people that feel about it like i do
she said that i shouldnt be ashamed of it and actually made me feel good about it
and told me this story about a girl that used to do it on her face. and now shes some sort of therapist.
i guess if other people feel like i do than maybe i can be happy with it someday :S

No. Nobody is proud, unless they're a "poser" or whatever.
I wouldn't say I'm ashamed, because I've realised that's just who I am,
but I'm not proud either.

Didnt see you there
i totally get what you mean and i think there is a difference between not being ashamed and pride.
Sometimes i feel like that but if im around people they make me feel ashamed without them even knowing about it
its hard to explain i guess
Please do not double post, use the edit button- Fiction

[RAWWR]

I'm gonna be different and say yes-I am proud. I'm not proud of how far it got, or the fact that I ever did it in the first place. But i'm proud that I chose that over suicide. I didn't give up. Exactly the opposite, I chose to hang on so tightly that I would go that far to do it.

[Fiction]

I guess sometimes i look down at my arm and think "this is what I can do to myself" and i get a strange sense of pride from that. At the same time i get ashamed when other people see it :/

[Blood]

I guess sometimes i look down at my arm and think "this is what I can do to myself" and i get a strange sense of pride from that. At the same time i get ashamed when other people see it :/

That's kind of the same way I feel.

I see how terrible it is, but I'm kind of 'proud' of myself, in a strange way. Look what I've done. Look at all the scars.

But for what? To feel the pain? I don't really feel bad about it, but I feel like I should stop it.

[Magenta]

No. Nobody is proud, unless they're a "poser" or whatever.
I wouldn't say I'm ashamed, because I've realised that's just who I am,
but I'm not proud either.

I'm not really a 'poser' but I am a bit proud...

Don't get me wrong, there are times I'm completely ashamed and I do hide it but sometimes I'm really pleased with myself.

[love is louder]

I'm gonna be different and say yes-I am proud. I'm not proud of how far it got, or the fact that I ever did it in the first place. But i'm proud that I chose that over suicide. I didn't give up. Exactly the opposite, I chose to hang on so tightly that I would go that far to do it.

Is this because you've stopped doing it
or do you feel proud while you still are?

[UnknownError]

I'm not really a 'poser' but I am a bit proud...

Don't get me wrong, there are times I'm completely ashamed and I do hide it but sometimes I'm really pleased with myself.

Yeh I kinda worded that wrongly. >.<

[RAWWR]

Is this because you've stopped doing it
or do you feel proud while you still are?

I don't feel proud when i'm actually doing it, but when I think about what would've happend if I didn't. The only other thing in my head, yes, I am proud, because that other option is suicide, and I didn't go for that.

[Kaius]

I'm not proud of it, no. I don't regret turning to it though. I think if i didn't turn to self harm I would've probably actually committed and succeeded suicide by now, if not I don't think I'd be who I am today. I probably wouldn't even be here at this point in time right now writing this.

[Syvelocin]

I'm definitely not a poser, but for a change to this thread I would say I'm proud. I'm proud and definitely not ashamed. I've never been ashamed of it. This is me, take me or leave me, but the scars will come with it, whether people like it or not I'm going to wear what I want and share what I want without a care. And if people can't deal with that and say I'm the wrong type of self-harmer/recovering self-harmer, then that's their problem because they're only telling lies. And it's a bit difficult to call me emo, the only evidence for that is scars... so they really don't know what they're talking about if they say that XD

[Ambrosia]

I'm not proud at all, just because of the fact that I'm horribly ashamed. I feel stupid when people "get a hunch" that I do it and it embaresses me beyond belief. A nurse in the doctor once asked me if I did it and I pretended like I had no idea what she meant. She brought in a lady and asked if I would talk to her about my self-harm and I got up and left.

I'm not going to lie. I hate it. And I'm ashamed of it.

[smithy94]

i do regret doing it, especially when friends and my girlfriend see my arm :( but they dont treat me differently tbh, i wouldnt say im proud of doing it but it did make me feel better at the time, so i cant really decide

[HeroesAndCons]

No. Nobody is proud, unless they're a "poser" or whatever.
I wouldn't say I'm ashamed, because I've realised that's just who I am,
but I'm not proud either.

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[TRexbait]

While I don't regret my actions, I wouldn't say I'm proud. To be proud would be to able to show my cuts to society and not care what they say, it would be to endorse my actions and advertise for others to do them.
I'm not doing that, nor would I want to. I recognize it's unhealthy, and while I believe I don't need the permission of the world to destroy myself (or to rebuild myself for that matter), I don't believe that I should be allowed to instruct people on how they should view the matter.

[Alexithymia]

I'm proud when I do it. I'm mad at myself afterwards. But I'm never regretful.

[Happz]

I never regret it, and it makes me proud to think ive overcome it, esspecially when someone asks me about it.

[SirRawrsalot]

The self-harm I do now is just tiny things like bitting my cheeks and picking at my skin or something, but I am extremely embarrassed of all the scars I have from cutting. Completely ashamed. I don't exactly regret it, because it helped me get through a lot, but I don't love it or brag about it.