I Don't Want These Feelings

[Roses_Are_Yellow]

I have this friend I can never seem to get out of my head. Sometimes, I think we subconciously flirt with each other by teasing one another. After the first few weeks of never getting her out of my head, I started being really mean towards her because I started to feel weird and uncomfortable. (I feel bad about that know) A lot of my friends think "she need's to come out of the closet" (not my words, my other friends words) but, I don't think she's to fond of people from the same gender likng each other. One of our friends started dating her best friend (both girls) myfirst friend found out, she thought it was disgusting that they were dating. I'm so confused though because I can't stop thinking about a guy in my English clas right now too. I don't know if I'm lesbian, bi, or straight but for some reason I don't WANT to be lesbian. I don't want to have feelings for anyone from the same gender as me. I feel so horrible for saying that! I've always said that there was nothing wrong with people of the same gender liking one another , and my family and the majority of my friends are the same way too. I feel like such a hypocrite. I even almost relasped to cutting again because I couldn't deal with all the thoughts, but I came on VT instead. UGG!!! Why is life so confusing?!?!?!?!:confused::(:what:

[ohsnap]

Especially in adolescence, emotions can be running all over the place. Answers come with time. It may take days, weeks or years. Be patient with yourself.

[Ambrosia]

You are thirteen and puberty is all your body is about/going to be about. You're going to be confused and you're going to have weird feelings. Hormones run rampant! It's only natural for you be to curious about the same sex and you just need to let it run it's course. Don't panic about these feelings or stress over them because chances are they will go away.

[Spook]

This is just a regular stage of puberty...as I have said before. Young teens explore their sexuality, and some may have mixed thoughts about it. It is true that people say it is "unnormal" to be lesbian or bi, but it is just the way that people feel. You must not "want" to feel lesbian or bisexual because you think that you will veer away from that "normal" feeling. You shouldn't feel bad about thinking this. If you feel like your friend won't like you because you are bi or lesbian, she isn't a worthy friend to have. Still, you should work on exploring your feelings. Good luck and if you ever want to talk PM me.