I'm just getting worse

[Nevermore]

i apologizing for making too posts in the Mental Crisis Forum. I can assure you they are unrelated. I feel like I'm losing it. I'm resorting to a child like self, and that means I will be acting like a child. Problem is I'm in school. I don't want my child self to take over. I'm nto sure what will happen if she does. I'm never in any control when she takes over. I don't even remember, just a few memories right before she's in full control. Laughing uncontrollably, acting like a three year old squirell who got a hold of crack. I'm trying to calm down now, but I can't, I don't know what to do. :( How do I control this? How do I stop the change?

[music is my soul]

take a few deep breathes. dont think about her just think about what is going on around you. im not sure if it will help but might as well try it. if you need to talk im here.

[Nevermore]

Okay thank you I'll try that.