Everything I Do Is Wrong...

[judgeofsin]

Well, for awhile now, everytime i get in trouble somehow with my parents, they always seem to find some way to turn the blame on me. This even happens when i've done nothing wrong. I just can't seem to catch a break when it comes to them. They've never whipped me, or given me any sort of physical pain. Emotional pain, yes. Everytime I get in trouble or something related, they always end up scaring me. Especially my dad. I don't mean scaring me like "I just saw a ghost scary" I mean like "I'll snap your neck" scary. It's gotten so bad over the years that whenever they confront me about something, I can't even speak. No matter how hard I try. I feel like throwing up, like I could just die. In fact, even in my mind after a situation like this, I think about cutting or hurting myself. Maybe even bringing about my own death. I always cry my eyes out. I love my parents, I really do. I don't want to hurt them or run away from home. I just don't feel safe around them when they get like this. They always make me feel worse about what happened. I just feel horrible. :(

[Iron Man]

It sounds like you are abused. It isn't your fault. Your parents have no right to treat you like that. Is there an adult that you can tell?

[judgeofsin]

It sounds like you are abused. It isn't your fault. Your parents have no right to treat you like that. Is there an adult that you can tell?

My brother won't help me. He'll just tell me too "Be a man" like he always does. My sister can't do much seeing as how she's almost never home. Plus, when she is home, she's usually sleeping or too busy to help.

[Iron Man]

I meant someone outside of your family, like a counselor or teacher.

[judgeofsin]

I meant someone outside of your family, like a counselor or teacher.

None of them would help me. I tried. There isn't much I can do :(

[Iron Man]

I am pretty sure that it is the law for them to help if they sense abuse, or if they are told.

[judgeofsin]

I am pretty sure that it is the law for them to help if they sense abuse, or if they are told.

Well from what happened to me, it doesn't seem like there is because they wouldn't help me. My school is an "A" school. Yeah right. My school is horrible. The kids are bad, the teacher are bad (although VERY FEW of them are good teachers. They just teach well, they aren't good people) I've gotten used to it, but it still sucks.

[Iron Man]

Well, it may seem that there is no one out there to help. If you truly feel that the abuse is too much, tell anyone that can help.

[judgeofsin]

Are you absolutely sure this can be classified as abuse? I know that all this is hurting me, but. Are you sure?

[Iron Man]

Your parents may call it tough love, but to me it looks like emotional abuse.

[judgeofsin]

Your parents may call it tough love, but to me it looks like emotional abuse.

I've felt like my arms were in chains for quite sometime now :/ I just can't get away.

[Iron Man]

Do you do extracurricular activities or hang out with friends?

[judgeofsin]

Yes, I hang out with my friends. At school. Otherwise, I barely get to see them seeing as how i'm grounded. (for the same reasons listed above) I don't do any activities.

[Iron Man]

Hmm. What things do your parents ground you for?

[judgeofsin]

Well the thing i'm grounded for now is touching my computer at 3 in the morning. I was doing something important to me. My dad saw. He grabbed me by my shirt, pulled me into my room, yelled at me saying "What's wrong with you!?" took my computer, blocked almost everything on it and put a password on my account that i don't know. So now i can't even log into my computer by myself. I'm also not allowed to know the password. Later that same night, he walked into my room carrying a belt. However he didn't strike me with it. He just had a "death stare" on his face and walked out.

[Iron Man]

Well, being on the computer at 3 in the morning would give a reaction to your parents, but it should NEVER be a physical reaction. Getting grounded for that is understandable.

[judgeofsin]

I wasn't on long, just about 2 minutes. I'm never mad at them for what they do, it's just it ends up targetting my emotions.

[Iron Man]

If they ever threaten you with death or anything of the severity, you must contact an adult, no exceptions.

[judgeofsin]

I understand. I just hope they don't... I love them.

[Iron Man]

It may seem hard to do this, but would you love them if they hit you till you bled, or worse?

[judgeofsin]

... I just don't know. :/

[Iron Man]

Well, if you need support, we are always here. There is hope.

[judgeofsin]

Thanks. That means more than you know. Plus, i just got yelled at by both my parents. I went speechless again :/

[Spook]

I think you should talk to them. They may not realize that their words are scaring you.

[Aeroflux17]

Dude.. They are your Parents Love them dont make any Grudge on them.. Understand that they Love.. You know I Survived that thing when i Graduated and got my college degree. Now Im FREE.. The House is mine. :) Do something that will make a Diffference (not BaD THINGS) the Good Ones. :)