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[australiasian]

Okay so i have made like 3 post in the last 3 days( 2 today) which is more than ussual. Um i just cut and i hadnt for a couple of weeks but i was just feeling pissed off at my self because i felt fat as shit, im pretty sure i got rejected but its all weird and my best friend told a guy that i was easy and he should ask me out. I just felt pissed off at alot of things and i had the knife on my desk for a science task and i was playing with it and i just yeah. and so now i dont know if i should tell someone. Just today i had the sleeves of my hoodie up and i could hardly see the scars and i felt like it was all completly over. I feel like as soon as i tell someone, im definitely doing it for attention but if i dont its okay. Im just really confused and i kind of want to cut again but i wont.
thanks.
this wasnt really a question or anything just i would really apreciate advice
:)

[derkderpderp]

hey well done first of all of finding the strength to not cut for a while :D
but hey, cutting isnt attention seeking, or it shouldnt be, and it doesnt sound like you were cutting for attention of you would have walked around telling everyone 'look at me i cut'.
now, do you feel like youre in control of this?
i mean you have already said that you kind of want to cut again but wont, so maybe you have some control over the urges?
personally, if it makes you feel uncomfortable telling someone because you believe that they might think you are attention seeking then dont tell them, as long as the cutting doesnt get too bad?
if it starts becoming regular, or you feel the need to do it more, then tell someone, but for now dont if it makes you feel uncomfortable, because you sound pretty sure that you wont do it again, but if you do, tell someone if you YOURSELF feel concerned that it might lead to a circle of self harm?

hope this helps : )