Worried

[Nevermore]

So my parents and teachers are noticing my significant weight loss. I went from a size 4 to a 0. A size 2 is too big even with a belt now. All my shirts are baggy on me. Everything is baggy and lose. I like it that way though. My parents told my pyscologist and psychiatrist. My psychiatrist said since I lost over 20 lbs since the summer I might have an eating disorder. My psycologist said since she didn't notice the weight loss, that there was nothing to worry about. I told her I didn't want to eat, how much I wanted to lose weight, how much I've losed, and how it wasn't enough. How I count callories, and obsess over my BMI. I overexercise, and I go days without eating at times. My parents have known I've had an eating disorder for awhile, I"ve known. My guidance counsler knows, and she says if it gets worse I'll get hopsitalized. I'm under 100 lbs, and I'm underweight. I'm losing hair, and I have stomach ulcers all from not eating I'm trying to get help, my parents are trying, but nothing seems to be happening. I've been offered to talk to someoen who was recently hospitalized by my guidance counsler (one of the teachers at my school). She says hospitalization might be good for me. My boyfriend says that if I lose anymore weight, he'll bring me there himself, or tell my parents. I've been staying away from the scale for that reason. I don't know what to do anymore, please don't say just eat more, or get help. I've tried those things, I just keep relapsing into worse cycles. I don't want to eat more. I just feel so fat. I know obviously I'm not. The facts say I'm not, but what I see, I just see blobby fat.

[1_21Guns]

Y'know what Sammy, you're beautiful. You're beautiful when you're a size 6, 8, or even 10. I don't really know what to say, most of what I could say you already know, or it would make me a hypocrite, but none the less. I don't really know what to say, so I guess I'll leave it at the first 2 sentances, I believe that, and you need to start believing it too :hug3:

[Nevermore]

Thank you Natalie. :)

[Nevermore]

Thanks? :(

[Weeping]

Vebster don't seem to know anything about ED's. You're not a psycho! You just have a problem. And I really hope you will get better soon, and realise that you're really pretty.

I've been eating disordered and stuff, so please talk to me if you wan't! <3

:hug:

[Nevermore]

Thank you Elvira. :) Did you see anyone for it? If so what did they do?

[Weeping]

Thank you Elvira. :) Did you see anyone for it? If so what did they do?

Well, I met phsychologists before, because of my self-harm and stuff.. But they were crap.. After like I don't even know how long, my teacher called them and told them about the eating-disorder part, and they hadn't noticed a shit.. And they didn't really do anything about it..

They were the kind that just sat there like "How are you today?" and talking about something unimportant I told them a year ago or something.

My teacher did like everything she could to make me feel better though, even if it didn't work a lot since I was so bad.. She always tried to make me stop self-harming, doing stuff around my ED and such, so well..

Edit:

I've also ended up in the psych ward/hospital, though it was mainly because to serious self-harm and high risk of suicide.

[Fairfax]

I think you should try to make yourself busy in some work...
You can also join some gym and exercise there..
Thanks

[Nevermore]

I exercise and burn a lot of calories. It's not a good thing for me to exercise the calories off that I"m barely eating. I'm very unmotivated and depressed, but I"ll try to emmerge myself in some activity. I'm not sure what yet, or if my mom will be willing to take me some place, but I can always ask.