Wandering........

[LostTeen]

I dont know where to go. My parents are recently divorced. Since it, I feel like everyone is moving on with there lives except me, my sister went away to college, my ONLY friend moved away, and my mom has a new boyfriend. It feels like too many changes at one time. Sometimes I wonder if I end my life right now, if anyone will notice or even care. I've been depressed for a couple of months now. Im seeing a counselor, but am pretty sure its not just the divorce that is bothering me. But most of all, Im confused, and find myself mad at the world and at people or just depressed and quiet. Rarely do I smile or am happy. Everyone in my life is self absorbed, so theres no one to talk to just about me. I dont feel like a normal teen. I dont like socializing and am lucky to have at least one friend, or lack of one. I worry about stuff more than anything. I wish I had something real to be depressed about. Im just plain not content and would rather not be here anymore, than wander aimlessly not knowing what to do.

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[music is my soul]

i know how you feel my parents have been divorced for awhile. my mom got remarried and so did my dad. i like my step mom but i cant say that about my step dad. i dont have the best friends in the world either. i feel almost the same way as you. i cant find out what to do. i completely bombed my last report card and i find my self drifting farther and farther away from everyone and everything.

although i can say you do get some what used to not having your parents not being together. my parents got divorced when i was four or five and for the past year or so i have really started feeling the affects because im starting to understand. i have been getting into fights with my mom that really arnt that need. theyre always about something stupid.

anyway believe it or not it does get better. itll take a while but just dont give up we will help you through with what ever we can.

i am always here to talk when ever you need it. promise.

[DarkNick]

Greetings,
First of all welcome at the Virtual teen!
About your topic.Yeah indeed it may be hard to be in a situation like that.I've felt it too.
The best way to survive out there (In my opinion)is to start giving more time thinking about you and not what the others do about you.I mean do a new beginning.You can go out,take a walk.Think and put some targets that you want to achieve.Make new friends (eventhought it may be hard I'm sure that you'll find someone.There are many good people out there) etc.You can also start a hobby so you'll be absorbed by it and you won't think these bad things.Start counting on yourself and you will soon solve your problem.I hope that I helped :) and sorry if I was a bit..cruel you know :P :)

Good luck out there!

[Myrnodin]

Hello there,

You know, it results funny form that your topic title is "wandering" because when I was in your situation I decided that i would spend my life wandering. (In many ways) I did it becausee I a had an history teacher, that used to relate everything in his classes, with historical art. And even tho i found that boring at the beginning, I soon found that art tells a different story than books. It was then, that admist my depressión and repuslion from human beings, I decided i would wander in the past, by looking and learning about the history of art, and i would wander in the present, by making art myself. (I often say I wander in my own world) Therefore, declaring myself a wanderer.

The thing I can tell to you is that, everything comes in time, and that every storm has to calm at some time. I know that living your life everyday can be difficult, but i found my shelter in art, and you can find your shelter too, everyone can they just have to look for it and with time you will find your way in life.

I hope this makes you feel a bit better. :)

Regards,

Josh.