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[YesterdaysNews]

Last night I broke down, wanted to die blah blah, won't go into details.
I took some pills, and afterwards I got really disoriented/dizzy and I couldn't walk well or stand without having to lean on something. I ended up throwing up, and my mom took me to the hospital because the vomit was bright red (blood).
I took 3 Tylenol 3s with codeine, 3 Lorazepam (1 mg) and 1 Pantoloc (40 mg).
Do you think it was the Lorazepam that made me feel so out of whack? I know it wasn't the tylenol because I've delt with those before. And the other I'm not sure, I only took one because I didn't know what it would do.
I know this was stupid, I'm fine now.

[Dimitri]

Side effects of Pantoloc are dizziness, nausea/vomitting and many more. Lorazepam side effects also include confusion, dizziness and fatigue. There are no adverse reactions between the Lorazepam and Pantoloc but there are reactions between Tylenol #3 and Lorazepam and they are central nervous system depression (not good) and psychomotor impairment (You my tell yourself to do something but your brain cannot comprehend the message and you cannot perform the task) I would suggest not doing this again.

[staying_alive]

Levi covered your question, so I'm going to take the obnoxious position of trying to change your mindset. I know, it's probably impossible. You don't need someone telling your that it was stupid. Cause you've "been there" before and you know how to handle it. I will say this though: I have never, and hopefully will never, understand why people's go-to thing when they're feeling suicidal is pills.

Next time, go do SOMETHING that isn't popping pills.

I really hate lecturing people on their suicidal experiences, because someone feeling suicidal will lie to the death (no pun intended) that they're not looking for help. But even if you didn't want help, you turned to pills to help you anyway.

I end up depressed a lot because of medication I take, so I'm trying to put myself in your position. But every time I end up feeling suicidal, for some ridiculous reason, I hope for a better day to come. I'll go smoke some weed and zone out for a while, watch some TV, get my mind off myself and my emotions.

Please, take a proactive stance instead of a desperate one and don't turn to pills. If you don't end up dead, there's a good chance you'll end up severely psychologically/physically damaged.

[YesterdaysNews]

I understand what you're saying, and you're right. If I REALLY intended to kill myself I would've done a better job. But there's still a part of me that's hesitant and I think that's why I go to pills. I don't understand my logic. And as for other drugs, I don't know who to go to for them in my town and I wouldn't be able to do it on my own the first time. Pills are easy access for me because my mother is a pharmacist. And theres also a part of me that doesn't care if I end up with liver or kidney damage, or even brain damage.
Most of my "suicide" attempts have just been to sleep. I'm overtired and I just want to black out.
And that's my pitiful attempt to explain my logic, but yes, you're absolutely right.