All I want...

[Magenta]

...is to be back in the hospital. I felt understood. After a year of estrangement with her, my dad practically abandoned me and forced me to live with my mother. I'm back in the world and wish I wasn't. Certain staff felt more like family. I wish I could email them but I doubt they're allowed to contact ex-patients. I am going back for a day transition program but I just want to be admitted again. I want to do something stupid in order to go back. I can't sleep at home even with sedatives. I cry myself to sleep. I went out with friends but didn't want to talk. I just can't handle the world. I had one pass for a few hours. They didn't help me get used to being out. I was just thrown into the world. I don't even want to talk to my boyfriend. The issue is that it's an acute unit so it's not a long term thing. But I'm willing to do anything to get back in.

[Quahog]

Don't do anything to admit yourself back. That is just a bad idea. If you want to go back, you need to talk to the staff there. Tell them about your situation, and how you don't feel you were ready to go back home. They well then decide the answer.

If they feel that you are ready, they won't admit you, but if they feel that you aren't, they will keep you there. I know that you just want to help yourself. You feel the hospital as a safe place for you. If you still want to talk about it, you can. We are all here to help you. This seems like a tough situation, but I hope you are able to get through it. :)

[Weeping]

Pretty much what Jesse said.

And well, I know that feeling of wanting to go back. When I had been in the psych ward (even though I was just there for a few days, urgent hospitalized) and came home again, I felt like going back. I was even having dreams and stuffs about it. I guess I didn't feel safe with myself (hospitalized mainly because of a waaaay to deep cut and for extremely high percent risk of me committing suicide).

But oh well, if you wan't to talk about it, don't hesitate to vm/pm me or add me at msn/skype.
check my signature before adding me though, haha.

:hug:

[Fiction]

As everyone has said, if you feel that way talk to your parents or doctor about it, not do something stupid. As you said it's for short term treatment, so if you do something stupid you risk going somewhere for more long term treatment. Doing something like that could easily backfire on you.