At my worst

[Hatsune Miku]

Everythings going down the shitter. Me and my girlfriend ( long distance, 11 months ) broke up yesterday. She broke up with me because she said she couldn't balance the distance and being able to spend time with me, because shes always busy. She has friends and stuff and I don't have any. I stay home everyday alone and wait for her. We agreed to try and work things out but its not going well. I miss her right now and I asked her if she wanted to call, 2 hours later she texts me "Cant." Are you fucking serious? 2 hours and thats all you say? When she broke up with me she called the police and an ambulance because I said I was going to hurt myself ( I then told her not to worry im not but she was still worried ) and I have to be in the hospital for like 5 fucking hours. Everything is going down the shitter, im not going to commit suicide but I hope a bus hits me or I get stabbed or shot or fucking anything.

[Kaius]

Same kind of thing happened to me at the end of December, my girlfriend of 11 months also long distance broke up with me and blocked me out of every aspect of her life for multiple reasons im still not quite sure on. Suicide was the only thing i could think of and within 2 weeks I'd attempted twice but at the time i guess it was too weak and failed. 3 months on I'm near enough feeling myself again minus some other things I know probably won't go away for a while but tbh.. I'm finally glad i didn't succeed. Before this my previous girlfriend before that broke up with me for the same reason as yours has, not being able to balance it and stuff, it was extremely difficult to cope with. While you and me are the sort of people that can maintain long distance.. i guess our exes can't. I guess what im trying to say here is its not the right thing for everyone, but now you have an option to find someone that can maintain one, im not saying it has to be straight away because after 11 months you're going to need a bit of time to heal and sort yourself out a little more but you're not alone Matt. I know we don't talk that often but if you ever need to talk or rant or whatever else then you can find my msn on my contact page and my email in my sig. :/ I hope you're gonna be okay, just try and stay strong its the best thing you can do at the moment. There still seems to be part of her that cares deep down, but tbh i don't think shes letting herself listen to that and shes blocking it out because it might feel easier for her, she might hurt just as much and keeping away might seem the easiest option for her.

Edit: I just realized i edited your post instead of mine D: Sorry!

[Hatsune Miku]

Same kind of thing happened to me at the end of December, my girlfriend of 11 months also long distance broke up with me and blocked me out of every aspect of her life for multiple reasons im still not quite sure on. Suicide was the only thing i could think of and within 2 weeks I'd attempted twice but at the time i guess it was too weak and failed. 3 months on I'm near enough feeling myself again minus some other things I know probably won't go away for a while but tbh.. I'm finally glad i didn't succeed. Before this my previous girlfriend before that broke up with me for the same reason as yours has, not being able to balance it and stuff, it was extremely difficult to cope with. While you and me are the sort of people that can maintain long distance.. i guess our exes can't. I guess what im trying to say here is its not the right thing for everyone, but now you have an option to find someone that can maintain one, im not saying it has to be straight away because after 11 months you're going to need a bit of time to heal and sort yourself out a little more but you're not alone Matt. I know we don't talk that often but if you ever need to talk or rant or whatever else then you can find my msn on my contact page and my email in my sig. :/ I hope you're gonna be okay, just try and stay strong its the best thing you can do at the moment. There still seems to be part of her that cares deep down, but tbh i don't think shes letting herself listen to that and shes blocking it out because it might feel easier for her, she might hurt just as much and keeping away might seem the easiest option for her.

Edit: I just realized i edited your post instead of mine D: Sorry!

That is exactly what I thought. She said she still loves me dearly, but she said it's just too hard to be together. Although, we are both trying to work things out right now. But things feel different. It just doesn't feel the same.

[Fiction]

As Aaron said, she obviously still cares about you. She obviously still loves you a lot. You shouldn't blame yourself for this. I think it's just the circumstances of the relationship that she can't deal with.

I broke up with my boyfriend of a year and a half just under a month ago. I didn't want to hurt him as i'm sure she didn't want to hurt you. Sometimes it's just best for two people to be apart for whatever reason. She's probably somewhat upset too, I know I was. I guess what i'm trying to say, without sounding insensative, is these things happen. At the end of the day, you will get over it however impossible that seems right now. Suicide is not the answer, things can and will get better.