we kissed

[ackmedsgirl666]

so im bestfriends wit this guy. we are rele close now considering we never spoke or anything in such a long time....
but a problem has arose.. we have dated.... broke up in a bad way and sadly my life was left in chritical distruction....

so we have started chilling again and he admitted to me through text about a week ago that he still has feelings for me but not in the same way as his gf.....

heres the second problem. this past wednesday night we were chilling watching tv and shit and the next thing i know im on top of him making out with him....

basically before this happened whatever feelings i had for him were locked away and i had no intentions of leting them get loose. now they are full out in the open loose and i cannot get the image of us kissing out of my head... it was apparently a one time thing and he said it would never happen again,,, but idk.....
i just want to forget it ever happened. i feel bad cuz he has a gf and i also have a gf.... but now all i want is more...

i dont wanna ruin things for him and his girl.. i dont want to end up having them break up....

any suggestions on what i can do to carry on with this friendship in a les awkward way?????

[Skrate]

Talk. Seriously, hit him up on facebook and say "hey, man, can we talk about last night?" or whatever, and tell him how you feel. Don't go over the top and spew your feelings, just tell him that you still want to be friends but you don't want to let your attraction to each other get in the way of him and his girl.

[smitty35]

I think you just have to talk to him about it and say that you just lost control. Tell him you lost control because it has been so long since you to have hanged.

[ackmedsgirl666]

THANKS. we are still trying to work things out
i dont wanna hurt my gf and i dont want him hurting his gf
this is still all so hard to wrap my head around
not only did we kiss but now we are sexting.....
ya so im not sure what hes thinking anymore but anytime he tells me to tell his gf and i do he makes me look like an idiot and he just denies it to her
so idk.....
still confused

[ackmedsgirl666]

ok i know this thread is old but since it's my thread i will add to it
so me and my friend kissed and madeout again and stuff ALOT
more than once. now it is getting even harder to stop. he usually makes the first move. but i am so scared. my girlfriend agreed to an open relationship but only with this guys cuz she trusts him alot and knows he won't hurt me. i wanna be with him. i just have to.....

[anonymous53]

Think about this. Think about how his GIRLFRIEND would feel if she found out about this. If you feel bad, stop, or tell him he needs to ask her for an open relationship or something.
If you two really are meant to be, break up with the people you obviously don't love if you two are cheating on others for eachother. It's not fair to them

[ackmedsgirl666]

i love my girl
he loves his. he asked his girl for an open relationship but she said no yet he keeps going on. idk how to manage this cuz for some reason when he goes to kiss me i can't seem to push him away

[anonymous53]

Well, if you feel bad about it. Talk to him about it.
Seriously. He doesn't love his girl if he continues on with these behaviors.

[ackmedsgirl666]

thats true enough believe me i have tried to explain how i feel to him
but then we just end up kssing again and its soo hard to walk away
i love him with all my heart and have loved him as long as i have known him(before i was openly gay) i wanna talk to his girl too but she hates me at the moment because i have MPD and one of my alters told his girl what we have been doing.

[anonymous53]

Ah. Wait, and this girl is still with him? No offense...she's kinda slow. She needs to leave him :P

Well, good luck on whatever you do :) I wish you the best ;)

[ackmedsgirl666]

thanks and yes they are still together and have been for 11 months
which is what is making me feel twice as bad because if they break up its all my fault.

[anonymous53]

I really just feel bad for his girlfriend.

[ackmedsgirl666]

so do i
i just feel bad that he never even gave me a second chance
didn't wait or nothing until i came back so we could have talked and worked things out.. but no
i move back and things changed

[anonymous53]

Well, maybe talk to him if you can...try to figure things out.

[sidramalik100]

wow kiss is nice thing and you are lucky that you do it

[ackmedsgirl666]

yes i agree it is a nice thing.... but finally it has come to an end
u can still comment sure but as i write this he is probably reading this thread..

boy..... i love you. i want to be with you. i love when you kiss me because it makes me feel out of this world. i will do anything to get you back and hold u in my arms again. i promise you this... if you do someday take me back i will not be controlling or clingy like her or txting u 24/7 when i know u have a life. but then again it's your choice and i can't force u to change ur mind but hear me out on this....
I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER AND THAT WILL NEVER CHANGE...

anyways back to the topic here. yes me and him have done some talking trying to figure things out but then again he talked to his girl and she said no which really tore me up inside. i didn't cut thank god cuz love isn't worth cutting over.i know that evenatually he will leave her though and then that will be my chance. he complains alot about her.. i just wish he could really know how i feel knowing that hes with another person but still loves me.

[amigo93]

You guys need a serious talk to figure everything out.