My life is pretty much shattering in pieces

[Wicked_Syn]

I have had attendance issues regarding school all my life, and now, in my 9th grade year, it seems like I have pretty much just given up. I missed a full week 2 weeks ago, and I really never do my homework. I usually end up procrastinating. School has officially become unimportant to me, and that scares me because I want to be a successful person in life and be happy.

I used to have goals and aspirations in life, and i used to be a really motivated kid. I used to have a strong will, but now all seems to be gone. I have lost all reason and motivation to do anything important. Like go to school. Go and run at the YMCA, do my homework, study. I have become extremely lazy. I feel lost and kind of feel like suicide could be an answer. I know though that I won't commit to suicide, I just don't want to do that, but it's pretty much the only answer I see, next to dropping out.

If there is anyone out there that has felt like this, please tell me what you went through, I am just completely lost. :(

[Ambrosia]

Once I entered high school I found myself unable to really become motivated. I knew that I wanted to grow up and be successful but I can't concentrate and I just can't seem to do any of my work myself.

You have to motivate yourself.
You have to remind yourself WHY You want to do it.
And ya know what? You might want to go see a doctor.
Sometimes it can be caused by depression or other underlying problems. As highly against pills as I am they can often times be used to bring you back to the world you need to be in, putting the motivation right back in.

I don't want you to drop out. These days so many kids just drop out and go to Alternative Schools, others don't. But you need to finish school one way or the other, no matter what you have to do. Find something that interests you and start in at it. Tell yourself that if you don't attend school you're going to end up that bearded hobo under that overpass! You don't want that.

Do you?