AquaMarine
March 4th, 2011, 01:56 AM
Im 15 male and i will just try to summarize what I feel and am wondering if there is anyone out there that is willing to talk to me about it.
I was diagnosed with depression a little over 18 months ago, I have been on and off meds have tried counseling but nothing seems to work.
Lately it has been getting a lot worse. Last year my parents decided to move, they wanted a bigger house. I was able to stay at the same middle school, but I had to go to a seperate highschool than my only true friend. I believe this is what triggered my depression and deep down I know I can not blame my parents I still cant get over some anger towards them. I had other people I could have hung out with, but I hated how inconsiderate they all are, an just stopped talking to them. I really have no friends and my parents have started to pick up on it and I feel like a loser, actually I feel worse than a loser. Nothing is fun anymore, I wake up and have nothing to look forward to. My grades last quarter were Ds and Fs but I recently brought them up to Bs. School makes me miserable I talk to no one in my classes and lunch usually involves my walking to dairy queen eating alone. I am bored with everything I do, nothing has been fun and I honestly forgot what true happiness feels like. Sometimes i get short bursts of feelings like I am having fun, but then I think, what am I going to do after this? After school i do my homework , i used to play xbox but it is no longer fun, I go to my room and spend the time in my room alone. More than often I am crying myself to sleep. I cant stand seeing everyone arpund me happy when I cant be happy. Why cant i just be happy. If anyone can talk send me a message.
I was diagnosed with depression a little over 18 months ago, I have been on and off meds have tried counseling but nothing seems to work.
Lately it has been getting a lot worse. Last year my parents decided to move, they wanted a bigger house. I was able to stay at the same middle school, but I had to go to a seperate highschool than my only true friend. I believe this is what triggered my depression and deep down I know I can not blame my parents I still cant get over some anger towards them. I had other people I could have hung out with, but I hated how inconsiderate they all are, an just stopped talking to them. I really have no friends and my parents have started to pick up on it and I feel like a loser, actually I feel worse than a loser. Nothing is fun anymore, I wake up and have nothing to look forward to. My grades last quarter were Ds and Fs but I recently brought them up to Bs. School makes me miserable I talk to no one in my classes and lunch usually involves my walking to dairy queen eating alone. I am bored with everything I do, nothing has been fun and I honestly forgot what true happiness feels like. Sometimes i get short bursts of feelings like I am having fun, but then I think, what am I going to do after this? After school i do my homework , i used to play xbox but it is no longer fun, I go to my room and spend the time in my room alone. More than often I am crying myself to sleep. I cant stand seeing everyone arpund me happy when I cant be happy. Why cant i just be happy. If anyone can talk send me a message.