too far...

[beag_amhain]

managed to go 5 days with out cuttin and tyhen snapped =[
i lost control of what i was doing and scarred my self when i realised what i had done
usually i just stick to one place but i destroyed both my hips and sides
im so ashamed of myself
n my best friend realised what i had done immediatly cuz he went to hug me and i almost staryed crying wen he squeezed
n now hes not talkin to me =[
n i just wanna do it more bu i know i shudn i shud heal first
but dont think i can wait two weeks....

[oopsy's]

I know its hard not to just cut because theres no reason why you shouldnt but try and distract yourself as best you can by reading, drawing, listening to music etc and wait the best you can to make sure the cuts heal also tell your friend why your doing it ... he'll want to help you which meens helping you to stop cutting :) good luck and i hope you dont cut

[beag_amhain]

thanks
but the reason hes mad is cuz i dont know why i do it
ive tryed explaining but i dont know what to say
i, myself dont know why i do it so i dont know how to explain it to someone else