depressed again!

[ArtistInNeed]

why is is that whenever i start to feel ok, all of a sudden, i feel like crap again!? I hate going thru these phases where for months ill be happy and then im not.. Its so stressful! Today, all morning, while i laid in bed all i could think of was how i could write my suicide note and go to the bathroom and kill myself. Itd be easier if i could hang myself but alas i have nowhere to hang a noose...i dont want to cut myself to die..that would take too long and drowning is hard. :( I moved out of my house and into an apartment with my bf and 2 friends in september thinking that would make me all better, nope. still fucked up. *sigh*.

[TravM]

You recognize you are depressed. That's when you realize that in order to gain happiness again and to have that fulfilling sense, you have to motivate yourself to be happy. Think about which places and people motivate you and help you in a positive way. People who are easy for you to have discussions with, which could include your boyfriend. Perhaps make plans with him. Do something you wouldn't do, in hopes of this getting you out of your depression. It's such a better option than having to have that constant agonizing urge to kill yourself and end your life once and for all. You have to learn to enjoy life first in order to be happy. Although I don't know your situation in exact detail, I will say that it can get better. It just depends on if you're willing and making an effort to gain happiness. :) I hope any of my words may have helped and if you ever want to talk about your issues, you can PM me anytime for advice or counseling.

[SarahB123]

hey you! i cant believe i`m hearing this!! I just been through all your artwork and i was amazed how good they are. you have some real talent, and ur so pretty, good looking and not afraid to speak your mind. Your an amazing person. why would you waste such a great life you could lead?? I dont understand, do you feel trapped and not going anywhere? would you like a huge change in your life? Please talk to me..... I wanna know whats making you like this, cos it doesnt seem like your being the person you were born to be! hopefully your friend, Sarah :)

[calixjane]

If you need someone to talk to just message me. You are not alone, someone always cares for you.

I suggest you hit the gym or go for a walk it will help you shed the lethargy that comes with feeling depressed. The more enthusiastic your moments, the better you will start to feel.To improve your outlook on life, spend time with positive people. Teen depression (http://www.troubledteens.com/articles/how-to-tell-if-your-teen-is-depressed.html) often starts very mild, and if you are paying attention it can be caught early.