Please Help!!! It's gonna be long but please just hang in there

[Bkylblk]

I have to say that I am stuck in the most complicated, confusing, and upsetting situation in my life. To explain things I have to go back in time a little bit. I guess since I was younger i've always questioned my sexuality, but my uncertainty has reached an all time high over the past 2 years. At the beginning of Freshman year I was pretty confident that I was straight, yet I had only kissed one girl. By April I had managed to go from being rather innocent and inexperienced to having hooked up with 8+ people which the majority was guys. All of that had really fueled my confusion, but I never let any of my friends catch on to how I felt. By June I was in a relationship with this girl that I loved, but for some reason I cheated on her with my best friend who was in a relationship. Me and him had gotten pretty intimate and it really made me question if I was more than just curious. Come July I had been dumped by my girlfriend and fooled around with another one of my guy friends. But that time I really didn't like it. That made me feel like I could have just been experimenting and I was Straight. I hadn't done anything with a guy since then, but then last saturday came along. It was my best friend who I had been intimate with in June and I have to admit that I had thought about that night several times over the past several months. I really don't know how to explain but when we're together its just different. He's so sweet and passionate in the moment, yet still so scared and confused. The kicker to all of this is that he is still in a relationship with the girl he was dating in June, and she knows about the first time we were together, but has no idea about saturday night. She's made it clear and even stated it saturday night that If I were to do anything with him she would kill me. The sadness in her eyes is really hard to forget. But I still don't regret what happened. Over the past couple of days I haven't been able to stop thinking about that night and how I feel about him and the guilt I feel from hurting his girlfriend.

I basically have 3 big questions; what am I supposed to do about me and my best friend and then his girlfriend?, I still can't decide if I'm Straight, Bi, or possibly gay, and do you think what I am doing is wrong based on the circumstances?:what::what::what:

[Sosaku]

Ok, for your first question, are you friends with her? if so, take that into account. He should know not to cheat on his girlfriend. If he wants to experiment, then he has to choose, break up with his girlfriend and continue with you, or stop with you, and continue with her. (sorry it sounds harsh can't find the right words atm) If you feel guilt for hurting her, then YOU should stop, whether you like it or not, you are hurting other people.

(Not asking if you are wiccan, or anything like that, i'm christian, and i still obey this rule from wicca:) In harming none, do what ye will. Kind of self explainatory, but just if you aren't hurting anyone else, do what you want. or it will happen 3-fold to you....in otherwords, KARMA...

I suggest you stop with him, until he chooses, you will both learn something from this, you, can probably then decide if you are Straight/Bi/Gay/etc...And he will learn to find what he truly wants, and possibly the rules of relationships lol...(jk)

I don't think it is wrong per se, but i DO think you should stop before Any of you get hurt.

[Flower_Girl]

It's okay if you like him but apologize to his girlfriend for what happened. i'm sure she'll understand. But tell him he needs to do some thinkin big time. Cheating is wrong. I really don't know what else to say. Though I have ben in your shoes before.

[itsthat0n3kid]

^^ flower girl is right. tell his gf. im sure she will understand and wish you the best of luck. you may just be curious, or you might be bi or even gay. the thing is it doesnt really matter as long as you are happy.
message me if you need advice:D