TheFoolOnTheHill
February 27th, 2011, 04:43 PM
Well...I have a lot to get out...I'm really suicidel.I've tried at least twice this year, but the last time I tried a few weeks ago I got caught... This just made me feel worse and I really don't think I can keep living like this. After months I started cutting myself again around Christmas time. I can't sleep well either, I just keep thinking about my best friend, my cousin and one of my very close friends...:'(
...They all commited suicide. (This is hard for me to type... Nevermind talk about to a conslor!)
My cousin did it when I was 9 and I started cutting not long after then. My best ever friend hung herself almost a year ago...I don't think I ever will get over it...Just the thought of her makes me cry.My other friend died from cutting too much, she lost too much blood and they couldn't help her in time...It was an awful thing to go through. My life has just being shit. I miss them more then words can say...At LEAST 3 of my other friends have attempted before too... On top of that my family all hate me for no known reason...I don't know what to do. I just want it all to end. I really need to at least cut...It's not even a want anymore. I'm not sure why I made this into a topic...I don't think anyone will understand how I feel. :(
...They all commited suicide. (This is hard for me to type... Nevermind talk about to a conslor!)
My cousin did it when I was 9 and I started cutting not long after then. My best ever friend hung herself almost a year ago...I don't think I ever will get over it...Just the thought of her makes me cry.My other friend died from cutting too much, she lost too much blood and they couldn't help her in time...It was an awful thing to go through. My life has just being shit. I miss them more then words can say...At LEAST 3 of my other friends have attempted before too... On top of that my family all hate me for no known reason...I don't know what to do. I just want it all to end. I really need to at least cut...It's not even a want anymore. I'm not sure why I made this into a topic...I don't think anyone will understand how I feel. :(