I havent been on in a while...

[singeramber]

And in the past few weeks I've been on and off stopping and at the moment I've made it to 3 weeks but the way I feel right now i just wanna rip my skin off or dig a hole and hide in it forever...

I hate being alone and when the closest thing I have to a boyfriend I have lives over a thousand miles away and all I want is a hug and to be told everythings alright then... :confused:


I just dont know what to do and I've tried everything I used to do to distract me even new stuff and nothings working... :( I have a show in a week and I dont know what am gonna do por how to hide the marks, cuts and scars...


and the psychiatrist said I was fine... :'(

[Quahog]

You should be proud of yourself. Three weeks without cutting is very good. That is a good motivation for you. I understand how you say distractions don't work for you. Because sometimes, they just don't. But have you tried putting your hands in clay? A friend of mine recently told me about that. She said it helps lots of being with cutting problems. Just go to the store, and buy some toy clay, like play doh, and just mold that around your hands. Or just crush it. You can always try that. Post in the non self harm calender too.

Are you being honest with your psychiatrist? When you talk to him/her, be sure to tell them everything, because they can't read your mind, and they can only help you with what you tell them. I also hope that your show will also motivate you. You can always come here and talk to us if you still have trouble. We have all been in your position before. So don't be afraid to tell us anything.