Suicidal :(

[kizzybaby]

Hi, this is my first post, so i dont know if im doing it right. my sister used to me a member here, and i dont get to see her very often, but she gave me the address so i could use the site.

ive been put on some new meds. and i think they are making me even more suicidal than i was before. does this happen to anyone else? they are supposed to help, not make me want to die even worse!. they also make me really drugged and drowsy. i dont want to get changed again incase its just because i have to wait a while before they are effecetive

Katie also asked me to post her blog address again, since so many people said nice things about it, and seemed to think it helped. its a self harm/ mental healthy blog and its at ...

www.katieinwonderlandx.wordpress.com

[MadManWithaBox]

I hate my meds a lot of the time. They don't seem to do much for my general feeling, just make him leave, and make me feel really sick :< so yeah, kind of

[kizzybaby]

do they have a good effect on your mental health tho? otherwise they wouldnt be worth it would they? im willing to put up with the sickness etc if the suicidal thoughts stop eventually.

[MadManWithaBox]

Well sometimes they do sometimes they don't. I mean with them I've gone 3 weeks with no attacks, feeling reasonably ok. on other occasions, the sickness is bad enough it's made him come back. If your sticking to one med, or a certain regime of them, you'll get used to them though. I've been on and off loads of different meds since I was 15 though.

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[kizzybaby]

yeah i think i might have to. feels like im on tranquelisers :( when i wake up i feel so heavy that i cant even lift a cup. its awful.

[Craig1995]

When I was put on my zoloft I was told that it had something called a black box warning for the increased thought of suicide in people under 21. And that if my suicidal feelings increased I was to tell the doc. ( black box warning is the most serious warning a med can have I think)
But yeah I did experience this about 3 weeks in so I stopped taking them and ended up with withdrawal. My doc wasn't happy about that!

[kizzybaby]

thanks, yeah ive been advised against stopping them because of withdrawals. but i do wonder if the withdrawals can be worse than how they make me feel anyway ..

[Flower_Girl]

Meds can always make things worse. I'm schizophrenia and used to take prozac... and for the first time in my life I was so depressed I couldn't cry, my voice was monotone, I couldn't move my body well. I had completely given up on life. My mom had to lave work and come home.

[kizzybaby]

yeah, that sounds right. voice is flat, cant feel properly. cant sleep tho, just staring into space and my family keep saying i look stoned off my face like ive taken heroin. i have an app tomorow to see about coming off. id rather be depressed! i still am anyway, but now im like a zombie. fucking brilliant cure that was.