I dont talk. Ever.

[insanity]

Im sick of not talking. I never talk. its so confusing, I have no idea why I dont talk, I just dont. I hate being the quiet girl who everyone forgets about. people always try to make me talk but then I talk less, I can get through days without talking to nobody, Its not that I dont want to talk to people, I do. I feel so alone, I go to sleep hugging my pillow and crying, just wishing there was someone to talk to.

people at school used to make joke about me not talking like:
'what does one Bree say to another Bree? nothing cause Brees dont talk hahahaha'
I feel stupid not talking but if I try and talk it all comes out nonsense and doesnt make sense. I used to be able to talk when I was little but I dont anymore.
even my mum tries to make me talk, the other day she gave me this big talk about how I can have my own opinions and blahdy blady blah then she started hiting me, trying to make me talk, but I didnt I just sat there.

I get so lost in my own little world of loneless that I have forgotton how to talk to people, I can talk to my friends or people I know well, but if I am with a group of people or if I just dont want to talk, I cant.

I dont know if any of this makes any sense, but I hate having to carry on like this, I am so lonely I just need a hug or someone to talk to, but there is never anyone there, I swear I am invisable.

[Alexithymia]

Well, I know this feeling too well. You want to talk. You really, really do. But you just say quiet, for some unknown reason.

I'm gonna give my little piece of advice and then run off somewhere. Just start talking to someone. If anyone gives you crap about it, tell them you just got tired of being silent. Just talk to someone you know. Say how the weather is nice, or bad. Talk about how much homework you have. Ask your mom how the day was.

Hope this helps. :)