canyon
February 25th, 2011, 01:01 AM
Long story short, a lot has been happening at home lately with my dad. He doesn't seem to care anymore and I can't be at home. It just stresses me out so much, I don't even know how to describe it. My mom feels the same way, but we don't know what to do. For me, my grades have been falling, I'm having trouble in school, and I hate just being home and around him.
Well, last night I was talking in IM with one of my friends, she's the only one who knows everything that's been happening. Anyways, I said a lot of stuff just to vent because a lot happened last night. I left my computer on and went to lay down for a minute and ended up falling asleep. When I woke up my computer was gone. I was kind of confused, but then I remembered that I left the IM up on the screen and he was the only one up. So I had a bit of a freak out this morning because I didn't know if he read everything I said. I told my mom that I told my friend and she got a bit freaked out too because in the IM I talked about how she didn't want to be here either. Basically, him reading the IM could have changed our lives forever. Fortunately, he didn't read it, he just took my laptop away because I talked back last night about what he was saying.
Even though I'm really happy that he didn't read it, I still don't feel right. Like, part of me kinda wanted him to read it just so he knows how I feel about being at home and around him, you know? I was about to tell him too, no matter how much it hurt. I was gonna go to the counselor at school on Monday too and tell him what I've been feeling too. I mean, I can't just vent to my friend, I need professional help.
I don't even know what the point of this thread is, I just need help or advice or something.. I honestly don't know what to do :(
Well, last night I was talking in IM with one of my friends, she's the only one who knows everything that's been happening. Anyways, I said a lot of stuff just to vent because a lot happened last night. I left my computer on and went to lay down for a minute and ended up falling asleep. When I woke up my computer was gone. I was kind of confused, but then I remembered that I left the IM up on the screen and he was the only one up. So I had a bit of a freak out this morning because I didn't know if he read everything I said. I told my mom that I told my friend and she got a bit freaked out too because in the IM I talked about how she didn't want to be here either. Basically, him reading the IM could have changed our lives forever. Fortunately, he didn't read it, he just took my laptop away because I talked back last night about what he was saying.
Even though I'm really happy that he didn't read it, I still don't feel right. Like, part of me kinda wanted him to read it just so he knows how I feel about being at home and around him, you know? I was about to tell him too, no matter how much it hurt. I was gonna go to the counselor at school on Monday too and tell him what I've been feeling too. I mean, I can't just vent to my friend, I need professional help.
I don't even know what the point of this thread is, I just need help or advice or something.. I honestly don't know what to do :(