I need to end it now

[MadManWithaBox]

I need to end this now. Do it here, on my terms, not on his, before they put me back on the ward. I cant handle it, I cant handle any of it. Ive tried to be strong, and I've failed. I'm just rotten, rotten inside, I'm a freak, I can't cure this, slitting my wrists for good this time and making sure no one finds me is the best end I just need to do it or they'll put me back there, and they wont let me out, I'l be there forever and he'll come back and they wont stop him, and he'll win, cos he always wins and the only way to stop him is to die I wont die on a shitty ward I'l die where I want to not here he says to he is a bad person not as bad as me he says he is trying to help I don't know fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck Fuck fuck fuck fuck do it now

[UnknownError]

Matt you are strong. You've made it so far, he still hasn't killed you has he?
You can do this, suicide isn't the answer. It might seem like you'll be in the ward forever, but you won't. Don't do it.

[MadManWithaBox]

Yes it is or they will put me back there I was up all night thinking I cut it open raw again the blood helps you they will put me back there on the ward and never let me go theyll kill me and drug me I won't ll fight them and him

[LozziRAWR]

Matt they won't put you back on the ward if you don't give them a reason to, be strong. You have a good life ahead of you, dont just give up on it.