Help me please. Last time post for awhile.

[Magenta]

My dad literally drove up outside my school unexpectedly, called for me to get in and I did. This morning he was screaming at me that if I didn't go to my mother's this weekend, he'd called Children's Aid to get rid of me because he was sick of me. Turns out, my psych called and rather than one week from now, they want me in the hospital in just over twelve hours.

I can't breathe, I can't stop crying or screaming and I can't think straight. The panic is terrible. I'm in full body pain. I was going to calm down over the weekend and make sure I was ready. I tried refusing to go but my dad is forcing me.

We had to go see my doctor and I started crying and he said I was like a two year old, would never get better, didn't understand there was something wrong with me and that I'd be on the street when I'm older. I ran out.

Now I'm sitting here with my scissors, I'm about to get a knife too, 18 extra strength painkillers and I know where my container of antidepressants are. I didn't take mine this morning, I was so mad, but they don't work anyway. I'm in hysterics.

I want to trash my house. There's no one home. My dad and step-mum left for the evening. I'm all alone. I'm going to die. I'm so scared. They can't just spring this on me. I can't do this.

[Fiction]

Jo, trying to take your own life will not solve any problems. You will only hurt everybody around you, and you'll never be able to see things get better.

If you go to hospital, you might not be in there too long, but if you are rushed to hospital for trying to kill yourself, you will most likely be in there a lot longer.

[UnknownError]

Jo, stop and take deep breaths. I know it seems very sudden, but like Kathy said, trying to kill yourself will mean you'll be there even longer, if you live that is.
What your dad said, to me anyway, seems out of order. And what the doctor said.
You need help, I know that you know that. So, go to the hospital and try your best. I know you can do it.

[Magenta]

I cut my hair rather than myself. Inch and a half gone. Could have been a couple hundred cuts.

Evening it out.

[UnknownError]

Good. I know your hair may look weird now, but its so much better than cutting yourself.
Your parents home now? Why did they leave you, if they knew you were feeling like that?

[Magenta]

It doesn't look bad... http://i299.photobucket.com/albums/mm287/dragongirlskitty/186949_1225641211_4895863_n-1.jpg

That's it. I just hope my parents don't get mad.

[sam_rock1516]

wow thats really good/ beautiful... dang just imagine if i tried to cut my hair i would look like a horses ass .... my hair would be half cut, slanted, probably a few cuts here and there cause i would suck at it. i would look like two butt ugly women with one heck of a bad hair day with guys clothing on... anyway thats just a bit of alusion of what i would look like if i tried to cut my hair ... now don't get me started with my mom cutting my hair.... its a because i have little bit of a weight problem and i would look really disturbing if my hair was cut the wrong way.... anyways maybe you could be a hair stylist????.... maybe??? cut my hair??? :) you will be fine take it easy... :)

[Magenta]

I'm still crying. Painted my nails, starting laundry and I think I'm just going to go cut.

[sam_rock1516]

yourself?

[Magenta]

Yes.

[sam_rock1516]

don't

[Noooooooooo]

don't

Hmmm... like that is going to stop her. Cutting is an addiction, you can't make people stop it by telling them to just stop...

[Donkey]

Self harming is not a physical addiction, more so a psychological one and thus communication with other humans and general persuasion to stop is the best way to do so - whether he was particularly detailed in his post is questionable, but even posting support and telling someone not to is enough, and more than you did.

Hope things are a bit better now, Jo. My contact details are on my profile and your hair looks good :P

[Noooooooooo]

Self harming is not a physical addiction, more so a psychological one and thus communication with other humans and general persuasion to stop is the best way to do so - whether he was particularly detailed in his post is questionable, but even posting support and telling someone not to is enough, and more than you did.



I only wanted to say my ''point'' if you know what I mean... I didn't meant to sound like a douche or anything :(

[georgiamay]

Self harming is not a physical addiction, more so a psychological one and thus communication with other humans and general persuasion to stop is the best way to do so.

Just because it's a psychological addiction doesn't mean it's not as powerful as a physical addition. It's just as powerful, just as addictive, and just as damaging.

Jo. :hug3:

I know it's hard, but if you cut now you might be in the hospital longer. If you just stay calm, you might be out a lot quicker than you think. Springing it on you might have been unfair, and quite out of order, but going into hospital might not be such a bad thing. I know you know you need help, so if you let people help you, you might be so much better when you're discharged. Then everything will be better, and you won't have to deal with all of this.

If you go to hospital, open up and let the doctors and nurses help you, you'll get better.

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[sam_rock1516]

then you do better ''abyss''

[Magenta]

At hospital. I'm okay.
See you in two weeks.

<3

[Donkey]

Just because it's a psychological addiction doesn't mean it's not as powerful as a physical addition. It's just as powerful, just as addictive, and just as damaging.
By no means did I question that - I was referring to the fact it is not something that be cured medically with drugs etc. (s/h itself, not what causes it), and so communication is the way you treat it - something he wasn't helping with. I'm well aware about the differences :)

At hospital. I'm okay.
See you in two weeks.

<3
Good to hear you're getting help, good luck with it all :)

[sam_rock1516]

wow this is sorta upsetting i feel reall bad for her..... hopefully she will get better