DarkNick
February 24th, 2011, 10:43 AM
I have never felt like this before...
I feel so much pain inside my soul,everyday more and more..
Every day looks grey to me.Nothing can ment me.None of the songs out there can express me,I can't feel nothing more than pain.I feel heavy and rotten,like I have nobody to give me a shoulder to cry.I feel that I'm losing everything and everyone!!! No one can make me feel good,nobody wants to!I hide behind a fake smile.I've been ill by cancer,my father had a CVA (stroke) and now,two years after he stays in the same condition (he can't even walk) and he hates me.My mother is tired of all these and half crazed let's say. I don't have power even to talk to people...
I just wanna stay in my cozy bed and in dark room until my death.I'm sick of my life,sick of myself (I feel like a trash right now) sick of everything.I've been bulled for 3 years from some other boys in my school (until last year) and they made me have many insecurites etc. I 've never had a releationship ,thought I've tried to.They say ''you are handsome'' and all these blablabla but nobody likes me.I feel so shallow despite the fact that I feel that I have to give so much to this world...
I just want to sleep forever.... :( :( :( :( :(
I feel so much pain inside my soul,everyday more and more..
Every day looks grey to me.Nothing can ment me.None of the songs out there can express me,I can't feel nothing more than pain.I feel heavy and rotten,like I have nobody to give me a shoulder to cry.I feel that I'm losing everything and everyone!!! No one can make me feel good,nobody wants to!I hide behind a fake smile.I've been ill by cancer,my father had a CVA (stroke) and now,two years after he stays in the same condition (he can't even walk) and he hates me.My mother is tired of all these and half crazed let's say. I don't have power even to talk to people...
I just wanna stay in my cozy bed and in dark room until my death.I'm sick of my life,sick of myself (I feel like a trash right now) sick of everything.I've been bulled for 3 years from some other boys in my school (until last year) and they made me have many insecurites etc. I 've never had a releationship ,thought I've tried to.They say ''you are handsome'' and all these blablabla but nobody likes me.I feel so shallow despite the fact that I feel that I have to give so much to this world...
I just want to sleep forever.... :( :( :( :( :(