More of a rant than anything.

[Fiction]

I've given up. I don't want to stop cutting. I have scars, my parents already know. What reason is there to stop?

It keeps me alive. It helps to stop me from doing what I did again. Why would I want to stop that? If it kills me eventually I really don't care. Stopping will take so much effort, and i'll only be worse off afterwards.

Is it so bad to be a self harmer? Does it really matter? It's my fucking body I can do what the fuck i like with it. And this is what I want to do.

This is who I am, and how I cope. People can deal with it.

[Njathind]

Just remember that cutting is only a temporary fix, and you should try and reduce the cutting as much as possible. However you said its keepng you alive, which in a way is a good thing :(

Just try and take care of the wounds, dont cut deep and try and controle the bleeding, avoid the veins and stuff.

Sorry if the last bit was a little patronising :whoops:

[Fiction]

Lol it's ok. Thanks Nat :)

[TheSleepingInsomniac]

I know i should tell you to stop but i'm i the same boat i mean people smoke people drink people cut people scratch whats the difference all addictions slowly killing us but keeping us alive sorry i'm no help.

[cooper-cutter]

I want to stop... but then I don't.

I hate for other people to see my scars, but I love to look at them.
I love to touch them, it makes me feel human knowing that I could easily take my own life, inflict pain or take pain away.

I don't want to kill myself though, I have a lot to live for... I just can't manage to cope any other way. No other coping mechanism makes me feel better than cutting does.

[Fiction]

I want to stop... but then I don't.

I hate for other people to see my scars, but I love to look at them.
I love to touch them, it makes me feel human knowing that I could easily take my own life, inflict pain or take pain away.

I don't want to kill myself though, I have a lot to live for... I just can't manage to cope any other way. No other coping mechanism makes me feel better than cutting does.

Then you need to find something that is, before it is keeping you alive.

[Nevermore]

Kathy (hugs). Like Nat said is true, it's only a temporary fix. You don't want to do this forever do you? You don't want to be 60 years old still at the will of a knife. You don't want to have these urges forever do you? Personally, I think me posting this is making me a bloody hypocrite. >.< I know how you feel. Cutting me is keeping me alive as well, however it's a lie. That blade is telling us we are weak and need it, but we don't. We can live without it. Things will get better. You will move out soon, go to college, have a better life. Look ahead to the future it's optimistic, and keeps us going.

It's only bad to be a self harmer because it's hard to get a job, or wear short sleeves, and deal with the ridicule of people. Also school.
I'm here if you ever need someone to talk to.

[Fiction]

Kathy (hugs). Like Nat said is true, it's only a temporary fix. You don't want to do this forever do you? You don't want to be 60 years old still at the will of a knife. You don't want to have these urges forever do you? Personally, I think me posting this is making me a bloody hypocrite. >.< I know how you feel. Cutting me is keeping me alive as well, however it's a lie. That blade is telling us we are weak and need it, but we don't. We can live without it. Things will get better. You will move out soon, go to college, have a better life. Look ahead to the future it's optimistic, and keeps us going.

It's only bad to be a self harmer because it's hard to get a job, or wear short sleeves, and deal with the ridicule of people. Also school.
I'm here if you ever need someone to talk to.

Thanks Sammy. :) Yes, I don't want to be dependent on it, but I am, so I don't want to stop.