giving out >.<

[beag_amhain]

ok me n lets call her D hav been friends for 5 years, she is the one that discovered i was bi, she is gay n is the cause, hurt, pain and healing potion of me, we are two halves. bu we fight like cats n dogs and hav often threathened to kill eachother n if we start a fight it can last weeks, we once went five months without talking, we have started physical fights in the past but that doesn happen that much anymore, she saw my cuts wen i first started cutting and we helped eachother stop as she confided in me that she did it too, bu now since im bak cuttin the fights are getting worse cuz all i wanna do after a fight is talk to her but i cant cuz she gets so thick so i cut, like last night me n D were on the phone and she started complianing that she was ugly, and fat and that no one could ever love her and long story short i ended up hanging up on her, going outside, punching a wall then going into the shower and carving fml along my ribs and a heart with a big x going threw it on my wrist, i wanted to do more, it was like i couldn stop n then she rang me crying saying she was sorry, so then i felt bad and told her wat i had done and she turned round and told me to go kill myself because it was obivious i dont care for her like i say i do that i keep lien to her and that i am just like everyone else that i dont want to be in her life that i want to die just to get away from her, which jus made me cry more and get angrier untill i just gave up and hung up, then i just could not stop, my arms are detroyed aswell as my sides and she keeps sayin that she's fukin sowee n that she didn mean it n that she hopes i didn do antin stupid and then trying to start a fight again, i wanna just give up bu i cant, i actually wish i didn know her so well so i could hate her for everything she has done to me, she is getting thick now cause im not texting her back or answering her calls, but i may sometime, even tho i really dont wanna

bu i just have to get threw it again
some of the things you do for the one you love
suuuuuuuuuuuucks >.<

[Ambrosia]

This is one of the most unhealthiest non-partener relationship I've seen in a long time. She makes you want to hurt yourself more than she makes you not want to. She tells you to go kill yourself, you two scream how much you hate eachother. Am I the only one who sees the problem here? You two need to take some time apart that isn't brought on by the fact that you two are fighting.