I feel something is seriously wrong with me?

[Alucard]

I enjoy death and destruction. I get happy when I see people die(in movies or games) and I feel that if I saw such things in real life, I would enjoy those as well. The thing is, I hardly ever smile, but when I think about people getting killed or mass destruction, It makes me happy. I have quite a strange grin on my face when I think of that. I know its wrong but I can't help it! Is this some kind of mental illness?


I was never abused by family, but I faced EXTREME bullying when I was younger from other kids in school, heck I STILL face that bullying today, could that have something to do with how I feel?

[Quahog]

No, I just think you've played too many video games where you kill people, and seen too many scary movies, and tv shows about people being seriously hurt. I don't think your going to end up as a serial killer or anything. Just try to remember most of that stuff is fake on tv. Don't let it get to you. I don't think that makes you crazy. I don't think the bullying has to do with it either, I just think you just see all that stuff on TV, and you get intrigued by it, doesn't make you crazy it.

[TravM]

I enjoy death and destruction. I get happy when I see people die(in movies or games) and I feel that if I saw such things in real life, I would enjoy those as well. The thing is, I hardly ever smile, but when I think about people getting killed or mass destruction, It makes me happy. I have quite a strange grin on my face when I think of that. I know its wrong but I can't help it! Is this some kind of mental illness?


I was never abused by family, but I faced EXTREME bullying when I was younger from other kids in school, heck I STILL face that bullying today, could that have something to do with how I feel?

Unless you feel you are seriously going to cause damage to other people, I wouldn't really worry about it. I'm a big horror film geek, so typically, watching people die is typical and isn't that bad for me. I can't say I'm actually attracted to the fact of death, but it's certainly not something that I'd shun or on the opposite side, get a grin about. Unless you believe that these grins could lead to sinister urges, I wouldn't think anything of it.

You are playing video games and of course you see and do new things on video games that could intrigue you, but maybe not enough for you to actually go out and chop someone up.

I can't really say if bullying has any part of it, depending on how you were bullied, and how much you let it affect you and how much you let it go. I wouldn't normally say that leads to an interest in harm, but it very well could if you believe what you feel is strong enough for that reasoning.