What are some of the things that you wish you could forget about?

[Ineedaplacetohide]

Well... Where do I start... My parents divorced when I was little, so I grew up without a father. Me and mom moved to another country, and she met a man there. Pretty soon, they became close and a child was born. My little sister. We lived with him for five years. He has soon proven to be very abusive, and very aggressive... He hit my mom a lot, and I couldn't really do anything about it, because I was just a child. He hit me too, but I always managed to escape somehow outside, or my mom would defend me... That night, my mom had to work late, and I was left alone with him and my little sister. I was 12 and she was 2. I've put my sister to sleep, because he was too busy drinking in the kitchen. Then I quietly retired to my room... Not a few seconds later he barged into my room, and I think I even peed myself a little, because of the fear of him. Anything that I would try to do was futile and no matter what I would do, or how many times I've begged him, he would not stop... After that night, I was never the same... I couldn't really fathom what has happened to me, and I tried to push it deep inside myself, until one day all memories started to come back to haunt me... I know that this part (technically) doesn't fit into this category, but I will still say it. When I was 14, and a bit more maturer, I started to realise what actually happened. I couldn't deal with it. I started to cut myself to chase the memories and feelings away and when that wasn't enough anymore, I started doing drugs. I started with very light drugs at first, and then moved on to those really heavy ones. I couldn't function normally at classes anymore, and I was always late for my classes, so I had to drop out of high school. It ruined my whole life. I managed to get rid of the addictions by myself, but I'm still paying the consequences...

Just thought I should finally share and vent out...

Do you have any traumatising experiences that you wish you could just erase, or have changed your life? Doesn't have to be sexual.

[Fiction]

Abuse :arrow: Mental Crisis Forum
Although your post is on abuse, you ask for stories of things that are not neccasarily abuse so I think you will have more relavent answers here :)

First thing I want to say, is well done for managing to sort out your life after something so traumatic, takes real strength to do that :)

None of mine are that dramatic, but visitng my dad in hospital when I was 7, and seeing the huge scars from a big operation he had.

When I was 12, the night where I nearly caused my best friend to kill herself.

Two weeks ago, the night where I overdosed, and ended up in hospital and the next day where I ran away from hospital and had the police sent after me. This one especially, being the most recent it still replays in my head every day, and in my dreams every night.

I have others but I don't really want to post them.

[Magenta]

The day my 'best friend' said it would be my fault if she killed herself.
The day my mother held a knife to her own throat and said she'd kill herself if it made me happy. Then said it was a joke and she wouldn't give me the satisfaction.
The day my dad thought I was cutting and stripped me down to my bra and underwear in the middle of my basement, with my entire family upstairs listening to me screaming for him to stop. I slapped him because he almost tried to check under my underwear.
My parents' divorce eight years ago.
The other night when I made 421 cuts in my arm. I'm going to hate the scars and I keep wanting to make 800.

[HellHound]

Well what can i say... The dark memories i could recall are my best friend dying,me almost jumping off the window and my father constantly hurting me for things i didn't do.

[Syvelocin]

Everything. I just want to erase it all. Start clean with nothing at all behind me. Live in some heavy-cultured area, like Germany or something. Change my name and everything about myself. It's a very appealing idea, but as much as I suppress my memories, I can never get them to go away.

[Triceratops]

I've always wanted to move to Finland and change my identity (name, hair, clothes, etc) just so no one would ever recognise me. But if you try and run away from everything, you'll always be bringing your problems with you.

I would just want to start over and have an awareness of what I'm actually doing. I wish I could tell my 10 year old self not to do the things that I've done and gotten myself involved with. If I didn't have what I have, I can't even begin to explain how much of a totally opposite person I would be.

[Ineedaplacetohide]

Thanks for sharing guys...

[RaineBow]

I was supposed to be someones little sister, but my mother got an abortion, and I think it was because she knew it was a little boy.

I was supposed to have a little brother, but he 'died' in my moms stomach.

My mom choking me when I was hungry, and stole some food from our freezer.

Her choking me when I broke some glass

My 8 year old best friend threatening to tell my mother that I used her perfume, unless I engaged in some stuff with him, I was only 6. But, I'm ashamed to admit this, I got curious, so it lasted a while.

My cousin threating to tell my mom something (I forgot what it was) unless I made out with him. Ages 4 and 6.

When my mom threw my glass at a wall (I know lame, but it almost hit me)

Visiting my uncle in prison

People...touching me.

Her threatening to make me sit outside naked if I didn't go to school at the age of 5

All the physical / emotional pain my mothers caused me.

My mother in general, I love her, but I'm not safe around her.

Some other stuff I don't wish to post.

[LozziRAWR]

Theres actually quite a lot I'd rather forget.. when I was three my adoptive mom threw me down the stairs because I lost my bobbles in my room, when i was seven i got bullied at school every day by everyone, when i was ten i ran away from home and stayed at my brother +sister-in-laws house for a week because i was scared, when i was 11 a 15 year old boy in my school took me into the woods and made me do things with him, getting called a slut for months after that because i told my best friend, when i started cutting myself, To be honest I'd rather forget everything except my boyfriend and best friends.