love music
February 19th, 2011, 11:20 PM
ive had a history with medication abuse, mainly pills. its connected to another problem of my past but thats another story. basically ive stopped doing pills. yay right? wrong. because recently, my life has been in a really bad downspin. things arent going good at all. home isnt a home anymore, i have no friend to confide in, and my boyfriend regrets doing anything with me. so what does that leave me with? pills. and lots of them. i have a stash that i havent touched in over 1 1/2 years. what do i want to do right now? take them all. every. single. one. but i havent yet. i guess im holding out for some kind of hope. something to hold onto.....but i know if i cant find it soon, then ill have no choice but to take the one thing i can depend on. choices....choices.....theyve always been there for me. just small and nice. so easy to swallow. give it 20-30 minutes and all the bad is gone. its just bliss. who wouldnt want that? its so easy and simple. and the best part is its easier to get than anything. why? because its medication given to me on a regular basis. migraine medication. one of the best depressents out there. and the more i think about it, the more i want to do it. maybe just one.....or two....or three....or twenty....idkk