It should have been me

[Kaius]

This is about an extremely close friend of mine who passed away after an accident in February 2007. Its not really a poem, just thoughts grouped together in a way I could vent.

Everyday I stare at your picture,
the vivid look on your smiling face,
tears fall on that picture,
as I sit there, tears falling from my pain filled eyes.

you died at such a young age,
why did it have to happen to you,
you were my best friend, my brother,
and I never get to see you again.

it was a horrible accident,
the car.. it took you away from me,
that feeling inside me knowing,
just knowing that you were drifting away from me.

When I saw you die,
my heart broke in two,
I couldn't breathe, I couldn't speak
my body was shutting down.

The next time I saw you,
your body was cold, your face white,
I could have saved you
I held back the tears, till the ceremony began.

When I took the stand with your sister,
the tears filled up in our eyes as I held her hand,
falling fast down our faces, staining the speech
we were so desperately trying to read

I sat down when she was done,
I couldn't say anything,
I buried my face in my hands and sobbed,
the last words in my mind said, "It should have been me"

[Charleigh]

Hun this is really good, but at the same time really sad.
I am here for you if you do need anything.
:hug:

[Fiction]

:hug:

It's really good even if you did almost make me cry. :(

[Njathind]

This is so thought provoking. Its so sad, but its time to remeber the good times you had. :cry2:

[nick]

I'm glad you got that out Aaron. It's very moving. Hope it helped to release and share it with us.