Myrnodin
February 16th, 2011, 09:34 PM
Im usually a simple person, and I succeed most of the time at not troubling myself with my feelings. But recently if found myself in a quite awkward... situation:
Even if I have a "good" relationship with my classmates, I forbid myself of getting attached to people except for those I deem trustworthy. (a bit of arrogance there? anyone?) But they seem to trust me for some odd reason.
The thing is, that there is a girl, who I always perceived as "cute", but there was something about her that made me stay away, something I couldn't see... A few days ago however, Y found her crying and lowered my guard a second to try and reach her. And guess what? It worked.... But now I have two issues:
1. I like her... a lot.
2. That thing I couldn't place about her? Shes lesbian and in a relationship with some other girl.
The thing is, that its a decaying relationship the one she has, and ive been thinking about "figthing" for her. But I cant bring myself to do it with true determination.
Why?
Because I know myself, and I know I can manipulate people easily, and sometimes I do it involuntarily, and shes a really nice "innocent" girl, and i dont want to bring her into something that is gonna end up hurting her. Its not some mad love I feel for her, I can control myself, but id like to hear your thoughts on this: Should I try and intervene, or just treat her like a "patient" or something like that?
- Josh.
Even if I have a "good" relationship with my classmates, I forbid myself of getting attached to people except for those I deem trustworthy. (a bit of arrogance there? anyone?) But they seem to trust me for some odd reason.
The thing is, that there is a girl, who I always perceived as "cute", but there was something about her that made me stay away, something I couldn't see... A few days ago however, Y found her crying and lowered my guard a second to try and reach her. And guess what? It worked.... But now I have two issues:
1. I like her... a lot.
2. That thing I couldn't place about her? Shes lesbian and in a relationship with some other girl.
The thing is, that its a decaying relationship the one she has, and ive been thinking about "figthing" for her. But I cant bring myself to do it with true determination.
Why?
Because I know myself, and I know I can manipulate people easily, and sometimes I do it involuntarily, and shes a really nice "innocent" girl, and i dont want to bring her into something that is gonna end up hurting her. Its not some mad love I feel for her, I can control myself, but id like to hear your thoughts on this: Should I try and intervene, or just treat her like a "patient" or something like that?
- Josh.