Nevermore
February 15th, 2011, 01:16 PM
I confronted my guidance counsler today about social and general anxiety. I told her food made me anxious, and eating in front of others and it's always been that way. She asked me if I thought I was fat, I didn't answer. She asked why I was uncomfortable eating in front of people I told her because people would think that I was fat. So, she said with a disgruntled look on her face that I had an eating disorder. In my head I was like OBVIOUSLY, but not wanting to make it sound like that, I said, oh no it's social anxiety my psycologist and psychiatrist said so. She then asked the names of my psychs so I gave them to her. She didn't write them down though. She then asked me if I cut, I looked down quickly avoiding eye contact afraid she's see the truth in my eyes and I said no. I was afraid. I'm still afraid, I don't think she beleives me. We talked more about my ED, she asked what and how often I ate. I said just dinner, sometimes a salad at lunch, lots of tea. She said I was malnourished and need to eat. I told her I couldn't because then I'd be fat because my body would hold onto it. She said you need to see a noutrishionist. I said, I don't know. She says you can do anything you want with it once you see her, take the information or leave it. So I awkwardly laughed and smiled and nodded. I don't know if she is going to call my mom or psych, I have no idea, I'm so anxious and nervous. I have to see her next Tuesday again. :( Am I in trouble? What is going to happen to me, I'm freaking out! :(