Suicide...

[Nevermore]

A year ago I lost my uncle to suicide. It affected me greatly. I realized what other people went through when someone close to them commits suicide. The questions why? A year before that I overdosed on prescription medicine that could've caused kidney failure and death. These past 3-4 days I've had to ignore wanting to jump out the window, jump out of the car, overdose again, hang myself, and purposefully cutting an artery. I was terrified to even cut myself for fear I'd reconsider and it would be too late, or needed stitches. Although I want to die, I can't hurt other people. I can't let them feel guilty, or hurt like that. I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't know who is safe to talk to or where to go. I need help.

[Charleigh]

Hun, the doctors. You need to go straight to your doctors and tell them this, they will take it from there. They wont judge you or any shit, just make sure you get youself some help hunny. Love you lots and stay strong, and keep fighting those urges.
:hug:

[Fiction]

You feel exactly the same as I do. I totally understand how you feel.

As Charlie said, you need to get to a doctor or a councillor. I'm waiting for an appointment with a councillor and it's the only thing giving me hope right now.

Also you need to try and find someone who you can be close to. They help a lot.

[Nevermore]

I saw my psychiatrist today, couldn't tell her in front of my mother. It would've broken her heart. Luckily I see my psycologist on Thursday so I'll talk to her about it I guess. Love you too girlie <3 Thank you for helping me.

I have one person I'm close with, my boyfriend, however telling him hurts him. It's going to hurt anyone I'm close to in the end. So I'm afraid to talk about it with him. Because I don't want to upset him, but I can't help feeling this way.

[Fiction]

I know how you feel about being afraid of hurting someone, but sometimes you have to think of your self for a while.