I keep cutting but it doesnt bleed.

[australiasian]

OKay so a couple of weeks ago i started cutting, just for the sole purpose of seeing what it was like...But when i cut there wasnt any blood, so i kept cutting. I didnt do it again for another week but then i was lying in bed and i did it, just wanting to see blood. I've been cutting for the past week but still no blood. I want to stop but its like i just do it again the next night its kindof fuckked. I feel like maybe if i see blood ill stop but idk. Its like i want to stop but at the same time i feel like its not that bad if i cut and that i want to. Im pretty sure like 90% sure that im not depressed, but at the same time i think im insecure about friends and appearances and shit,,doees that count as depression or would that be a trigger.
Even today on the first day back in school i just sat at my desk digging my empty .25mm pen into my hand and kindof cutting but like not.
frick idk if i should tell someone and i dont know why i keep doing it.
sorry if this is confusing and stuff, ididnt really write it out well ha
:)
xx

[georgiamay]

First of all, welcome to VT!! :)

It's a very very good thing that it's not bleeding. I think you're not cutting, you're scratching. I scratch a lot, but a cut will always draw blood, there's no question about it.

Please, stop now. If you do start to bleed, you won't stop, it'll make you want to carry on. I thought the same, I thought I could do one cut and then stop. Now, 3 years later, I realise that I was wrong. It's an addiction, and it doesn't help anything.

Please don't do it again. You won't stop just because you see blood, you'll want to see blood again, and again, and again, until you're doing it every day.

Look around this forum, and you'll see what self harm has done to everyone. It's not nice. I would say it's ruined my life, but that just sounds cheesy. But it definitely has made me withdraw into myself. Everything that goes wrong I think can be easily solved by cutting. But that isn't true, it makes things worse.

We're all here for you if you need to talk or vent to someone, we all understand what you're going through. :hug3:

[Mike321]

Welcome along to VT!
I think what Georgia said is spot on, its a good thing that it doesnt bleed, but I would strongly advise that you stop now, while you still can.
I've been sturggling with it for almost 4 years now and it really is a downward slope once you get addicted to it (and you do, quickly).
Even though it seems like it will solve things or make situations better, in the long run it really doesnt, it messes things up.
Its not a road you want to be going down.
Everyone is here to offer you help and adivce though, we've been in your position at some point in our lives.

[canyon]

OKay so a couple of weeks ago i started cutting, just for the sole purpose of seeing what it was like...But when i cut there wasnt any blood, so i kept cutting. I didnt do it again for another week but then i was lying in bed and i did it, just wanting to see blood. I've been cutting for the past week but still no blood. I want to stop but its like i just do it again the next night its kindof fuckked. I feel like maybe if i see blood ill stop but idk. Its like i want to stop but at the same time i feel like its not that bad if i cut and that i want to. Im pretty sure like 90% sure that im not depressed, but at the same time i think im insecure about friends and appearances and shit,,doees that count as depression or would that be a trigger.
Even today on the first day back in school i just sat at my desk digging my empty .25mm pen into my hand and kindof cutting but like not.
frick idk if i should tell someone and i dont know why i keep doing it.
sorry if this is confusing and stuff, ididnt really write it out well ha
:)
xx

Don't cut. Ever. Not even to see what it's like. Trust me, it will ruin your life. You say you're just going to see blood, but what then? What happens when youdo see blood? Then all you'll do is cut to see more blood, and more still. Before you know it, you'll be addicted to cutting.

It isn't worth the pain that you'll have to go through.

[australiasian]

thanks heaps
ill try and stop scratching

[suza23]

Umm. So you are cutting just because you want to see blood?

Does it turn you on? You're arent cutting for the reason most people do it seems as if you have some sort of attraction to seeing blood

[Syvelocin]

^ Ehh, I like seeing blood. It's actually a big reason for self-harming. It's usually not the ONLY reason, but it's a reason.

[australiasian]

haha yea.. no it doesnt turn me on. Its like i started and then it didnt bleed so i feel like im not doing it right and i just want to like get it right or idk, i just feel like by it not bleeding that im failing...ahhaha sound emo?
yeah i dont really think i need to talk to anyone b/c i dont think its that serious
:)

[Ryunosuke]

Hmmmmm I'm no doctor, but no blood? Have you looked into WHY that happens? And if you're cutting to see blood.... I can understand that, but cutting just, I don't know, doesn't solve things. I know because I do it. I'm trying to stop...

[australiasian]

yeah i found out that no blood came because im acctually a vampire!
nah idk i used a box cutter knife and it dug in deep and there is like this red thick scabby thing on it. Maybe i know i dont want to cut so i just dont.. really

[Ryunosuke]

yeah i found out that no blood came because im acctually a vampire!
nah idk i used a box cutter knife and it dug in deep and there is like this red thick scabby thing on it. Maybe i know i dont want to cut so i just dont.. really

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