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racmany
February 14th, 2011, 07:00 AM
yeah im 13. The story. Valentines day today right. Had an awesome day. Then in the afternoon i called a girl that i wanted to ask out. We have been on and off for a while. And then i asked her if she wanted to go out sometime. And she said, "errr... Yeah actually. That'd be cool." And i said yeah awesome i will talk to you laer about when. And then this afternoon around dinner i get a text saying she didnt have the guts to tell me over the phone that she has a boyfriend. And thats fair nothing to slit wrist about. But then just now my mum helps me burn warts (yucck) and stuff on my hands. And i was being a little obnoxious and she was complaining she was tired. And then she said "Stuff it YOU CAN Do It THEN!" And she didnt do so i walked away to finish in the bathroom and i head her and dad talking and complaining about how im to dependant. And then she calls out. "Yeah, I COULD CARE LESS IF HE HAD WARTS UP TO HIS FACE. NO GIRL WILL EVER WANT TO HOLD HIS HAND!" And i got upset and ran out crying. I went to the kitchen and pulled out a knife and began cutting my wirsts. And as i type this my wrist is in a tissue. mum came out and said i had been obnoxious and she said she didnt deserve to be treated like that. And i silently took the knife with my and slashed at my wrists before putting the knife down. :( i know. Im dissappoionted in me

Deathwingo0o
February 14th, 2011, 07:12 AM
Warts don't matter. What's more important is staying strong. You must STOP CUTTING because there is no point in losing blood over small matters. I tried to cut too but thought the better of it when my friend stopped me. Stop it and forget her.

racmany
February 14th, 2011, 07:14 AM
Oh yeah. This thing has sort of been everybuilding. I get bullied at school cause people call me gay. And i know this is bad but it makes me feel better when i think about them dying. And yeah. there is this other kid in my grade. We are similar personailities. Hes good looking and does well at school and is great in sport. And he is super popular. And i hate him for having his perfect life.