So fucking angry.

[Keats]

basically, i just had a pretty shit week.
things were a little better today.
until 5 minutes ago.
basically long story short, girl says she never wants to see me again.
i'm not sad, i'm just angry.
angry that i wasted so much time on her.
angry that no-one loves me.
angry at myself
angry at her
angry at everything
i just want to cut and break stuff.

[Brandon_]

dont do anything stupid D:

[georgiamay]

dont do anything stupid D:

Because that's going to stop him.

Whatever her reason is for saying that she doesn't want to see you again, that's her problem. I'm pretty sure that everyone in life will have someone say that to them. It's got nothing to do with you, it's just the way things work. People come and go, it happens. It's you that you have to live with for the rest of your life, no one else.

Just do whatever makes you happy. After all, you're the most important thing in your life. Without you, there is no life for you.

If you do hurt yourself, that won't change anything. It might seem like a good idea, but nothing will change, nothing good will happen if you do it.

PM me anytime if you need to vent to someone. :hug3:

[Keats]

i'm bleeding.
but i don't feel the normal, short-lived, releif. i just feel angry and wronged.
the thing is that so many people have said that to me.
it feel like cutting makes me happy, when it's really a false friend.
thank you though.

[Charleigh]

when it's really a false friend.

As long as you realise that.
Although, if you carry on, that false friend could become your best friend.

[Keats]

yeah i know.
and yet i still want to do more.

[canyon]

Don't harm yourself at all. It is NOT worth it down the road. If you have to do something, throw your pillow at a wall as hard as you could. That's what I do when I get really mad, and it does work.

You should never have to resort to self harm. Do anything but that, honestly. Cry, jump up and down, stick your hand in the freezer, anything. Just don't cut.

[Keats]

things just seem to be getting steadily worse.
i don't know how to cope.

[georgiamay]

things just seem to be getting steadily worse.
i don't know how to cope.

Well I can assure you, self harming will make your situation even worse. But you don't need to to tell you that.

There's always a way out of everything. It doesn't have to end with you hurting yourself, the situation that's making you feel like this can always be fixed.

[Keats]

at this point in time it seems like it's the only way out.
i know it's not the right way.
it just seems like the most appealing.
when it should'nt.

[Lost n not yet found]

I no u dont need me to tell u its the wrong thing to do, it is soo appealing but is only a short term fix and relief tommorow the problems will b back

[Keats]

I've got it in my hand.
Everythings going wrong.
It was a year today that It all happened.
I want to cut so much.
I want to be free of all this shit.
I want someone to care.
I want to die.

[georgiamay]

I've got it in my hand.
Everythings going wrong.
It was a year today that It all happened.
I want to cut so much.
I want to be free of all this shit.
I want someone to care.
I want to die.

People do care, if you just talk to someone about it, you'll see that they care.

Cutting won't make you free, and you know that. Maybe for a few minutes, but then you'll feel worse afterwards, you know that it really isn't worth it.

[Keats]

I honestly don't think they do.
I can't tell people, I can't let it get out.
And I can't go back to counseling.
I know it won't help, I just don't know how to deal with it.

[georgiamay]

you can go back to the councilling. You have nothing to lose, you go back there and they'll try to help you again. That's what they're there for.

You need to let someone know how you feel, otherwise you'll just suffer in silence, and suffering in silence is never good. You just get worse.

[Keats]

But they didn't help me the first time.
I stopped going when they were going to tell my parents.
It doesn't feel like I can get much worse.
There is No-one I know that I can trust with this.
There was one, but she made things worse then ever when she left me.
I don't know what to do.
I'm lost in my own mind.

i'm not even angry anymore.
i just want to die,
then everyone would see what they're doing to me.
why is everyone trying to make me feel worthless?
i don't even feel like my life is valuable anymore.

[kevinjk]

see, this is a problem that you need to think about and discuss.There are other people out there, every person has a match.You won't be lonely, it is just one girl.Don't take it too hard.

[Keats]

i don't know what i'm meant to say.
what am i meant to say?